Je t'aime ♥

Islam is Beautiful

2011-01-02T20:55:00.001+08:00

Salam. This will be the last post before school reopens in less than two days. I will update if there's anything I feel a need for a read of all. InsyaAllah...

I am writing right now, truthfully from my heart. Music is what I love. It's my passion for what I know, and I don't deny I love american music and malay music too. But from what I feel down beneath, I've learnt that alot of songs may drown us into hallucinations which is not good. We are Muslims, we need to take care of ourselves from bad influences, it's the right thing to do. However, I am still human. I don't run from making mistakes.

I still love, etc. taufik batisah and justin bieber. I've thought about what one of my teachers said. " I would be glad if one day, Izzati, you tell me you no longer like justin or taufik." MasyaAllah, teacher, you've made me realize even more that loving or rather fanatic about guys isn't what true Islam woman should do. Let it be your father, or brother, or family be the only men you love before marriage. Husband would be another story.

#nowplaying The Chosen One - Maher Zain. This song, it is a great composition with meaningful lyrics. It brought me to wake yesterday. It's about our beloved Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h. I really thank Mr. Maher Zain for this beautiful song, it inspired me to do good deeds, follow Rasulullah footsteps, and always remember Allah is the only One you will always seek help from every second of your life. Never stop praying to Him. If Allah answers your prayers, He is increasing your faith. If He delays, He is increasing your patience. If He doesn't answer, He knows you can handle it. Subhanallah, Allahu Akbar.

Furthermore, realizing now, insyaAllah will lead me to His path in this world, and hereafter to His Jannah. I'm getting older and older, death is in His hands. Ustazahs, particularly, Ustazah Nisha, who have inspired me alot, always ask, "Are you all ready for the القيامة?" The answer is always No. We're growing up, taking O's moreover, as His servants whom He treats us greatly, we need to thank Allah for everything. Let's all work hard, never leave anytime of your five time prayers, seek His blessings, always الصلوة على النبي, seek our parents' blessings, our ustazahs' blessings. I know these respectful people never fail to pray for us.

InsyaAllah, we will fight for our beautiful religion and for everything that it is. We will succeed. Ameen. ♥

1.1.11

2011-01-01T16:54:00.001+08:00

Alhamdulillah. Another year, I'm still standing on the beautiful planet created by The Greatest. Thank you Allah, for another year, another opportunity, another chance. I gotta work harder to achieve my dreams and live it to the fullest, insyaAllah.

Happy new year everyone! InsyaAllah 2011 will be a better year for all of us. Ameen. ♥

That Charm Bracelet ♥

2010-12-17T18:26:00.001+08:00

Watched RAPUNZEL: The Tangled Tale :D

window-shopping, we're beguilled to shoes and watches. burger king was our selection. 'i was' sneakily head-in to Diva to buy a pair of very cute and pretty fairy bracelet. 14.35 was the seating we plumped for, all popcorn and movie tixes on me. guffawed too much till we cry, hahaha funny. then it was time, those bracelets around our wrist. XOXO i love you. ♥♥♥

Shining Party Club Part III

2010-12-10T18:55:00.002+08:00

♥♥♥HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY, MR TAUFIK BATISAH!!!♥♥♥

May Allah bless you always and may you achieve everything you dream! Best wishes from me to you, Mr Fantabulous :: Thanks for replying my tweets. ♥

Oh, love you always, nice guy. :D

Its a feeling.

2010-12-06T16:37:00.000+08:00

good day to all. i feel like writing, but my hands are just too languorous. i've been missing a couple of people these few days. let me get this, frankly, special individuals that has been alleviating me. i mean at just 15, there's so much more to be learned, through what we call experience, or further exposure. i shall call them my confidante.

if you think holidays are the junctures where you just sit back on a comfy-sofa and a movie premiere would be shown. now, it's no longer like that, as our O's are reaching very soon, that is next year. ok, how should i put this into words? time seems meagering day by day, even minutes felt like seconds, so next year there will be no spaces in between exams. aiyt? i guess so, that's what they gossiped about.

okay back to the grip. my confidantes are all matured, being able to motivate and give a bunch of dazzling advices and motivations, yeah true. i seriously am so grave/desperate. i just keep praying every single day that i'll eventually find paths to meet them and go get my energy back. they're like my jetpack, buzz can't fly without it, i can't work without it.

i close my eyes and i can see a better day... ♥
i close my eyes and PRAY... ♥

Cold-Blooded

2010-12-02T18:47:00.000+08:00

HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS ♥♥♥

i will fight through time if i could for part II. as of this, i cried when dobby died. i mean although he's just an elf, but he helped so much. he's cuuuuute. hahaha. and hanhan and i screamed when the snake appeared back. oh lord voldemort, thanks cause the backseat people guffawed at us. it was christmas, and we felt the tenor of winter. it was friggin cold. and it's brilliantly-epic.

[P.S. and... not to mention, Harry is hairy. but to me, it's hot for a guy like him.]

Sentosaaa:D

2010-12-01T15:07:00.001+08:00

snacks passed around, sea breeze brushed along, sands were pure-white, sunshine suntanned our skins, smooth waves showered our feets, siloso-to-pahlawan-to-tanjong, that was all ecstatic about...

SENTOSA♥♥♥

Magika/Magical

2010-11-23T20:07:00.001+08:00

it was sooo fun today. hey maju, we're so fun, we're so fun, we blow their minds, hey MAJU! hey hey hey MAJU! hey MAJU! hey hey hey hey hey MAJU! hahaha clapsssss.

we watched MAGIKA at downtown east. great movie. very colourful, very malay, very happy movie, very touching-the-heart, very hilarious. hahaha XD

camwhore was nice. naaahh, it was more of a beautiful photoshoot of us. ♥

Back In Action

2010-11-21T19:35:00.002+08:00

boooooonnnnnjour. i'm back. :)

yes, i promised i'll be back right after the exams. but honestly i've got no mood to blog anymore. so i'm now on the verge of decisions, whether to delete/deactivate/continue blog(ging). she's indecisive, she can't decide. ahhhaaaa.

cmmon, O levels are next year ~~if you need me to speak that straight out loud!~~ hahaha jk. don't take it seriously. but yeah. that's a fact. alhamdulillah, been blessed, hamdan lillah. the road of final exams were so rocky, but i did quite well for my exams, that i improved, i'm happy and it's pushing me forward. :)

if you ask me, do you have Facebook? YES. so, do you tweet? YES. hmmm... do you have Tumblr? YES. do you blog? YES. phhheeeewwww, talk about the modern technology, i experience it daily. i need to manage well with my studies first, and the others in a row. somehow i feel now that i have iPhone 4, hahaha yup wish come true, been verrry-very active on FB and Twitter.

in case you wanna find updates from me ~~(if so...),~~ add me up on FB ~~(aren't all my readers my classmates???)~~ or follow me on Twitter okay. so insyaAllah in a few days, decision will be made. stay tune.

: peace & love :

Shining Party Club Part II

2010-10-03T19:25:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to you ^ ^ Happy Birthday to you ^ ^ Happy Birthday TEACHER SARAH BIBI ^ ^ Happy Birthday to you ^ ^ !!!

Here's wishing you a very Happy 22nd Birthday! I'm very happy for you , turning 22 in our first year with you. May Allah bless you always and grant you everything you wish for. My prayers will always be with you. I love you. ;D

~~so people of the bloggingworld, this is my last update of all.~~
~~i'll be back after my exams, it's reaching in two weeks time.~~
~~pray the best for me.~~
~~thank you so much.~~

Puppet of Situations

2010-09-25T18:47:00.000+08:00

wooooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwww.

it's been a very tough, challenging, testing my patience and strenght week . they/themseles been swinging curses over my living body, trying to make me jealous, well i may say they win. but at the same time , all of those efforts just seems to go up in smoke , just obvious to God . i controlled and kept thinking about her , not the other her . no matter what arises , they're just zombies seeking attention . you got it doesn't mean you've won it over me , over my dead body , lassies !

here i am retrogading all out so there's no longer burden burning my heart . yeaahhhhh .

I'm too annoyed

2010-09-20T20:10:00.000+08:00

right now , i just wanna refrain my heart & soul from feeling sad about how you treat me . that's why i vice-versa-ed the sorrow into annoying !
you always react differently , and how am i supposed to know whether everything is okay or not ? i mean we talked for like 2 minutes or so , but that doesn't give me answers to my doubts . this is so stressing me up . we acted like typical , but who knows deep inside your heart and mine ?
you know me , when i look at you , i will always hide my sorrow towards you and bring out back the sunshine . but why not ask me ? if there's anything wrong or so , it could've been better .
you make me go haywire !!!

a total detrimental obsession

2010-09-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

anaemic face, burning physique, high fever. D':

the second day of eid , down with a really high fever after nearly six months saying NO to disease . bluekkk , i totally can't taste any food , and i am quite amour-ing it ! hahaha weird but along with the fact that i've lost 5kg .

there are a few main causes to this fever .
[un] all the helps i've been lending to mum , sincere though , i love you , mummy .
[deux] all those gassy drinks , very unhealthy , but i only took like three glasses . hmm ...
[trois] i miss some of my loved ones too much maybe , not able to ask forgiveness , not able to meet em .

i call that a day . i'm not sure whether school is imperative . let's just see . anyway , please pray for my health . tysm ,,, ^ ^

Eidulfitri 1431H

2010-09-09T20:27:00.002+08:00

MasyaAllah , sehari demi sehari kita berpuasa , pergi sudah bulan Ramadhan tahun 1431 maal hijrah , yang disambut dengan mulia .
Begitu pantas masa mengikis umur ummah Muhammad , hanya harapan setiap jiwa Islam hakiki , moga dapat bersahut dengan Ramadhan yang akan datang . Bersamalah kedua belah tangan memanjatkan dua agar semangat jitu ingin menyambut Ramadhan sekali lagi , dimakbulkan Ilahi , InsyaAllah , Allahumma Amiin .

Takbir bergema di senja hari 30 Ramadhan 1431H , maka anak bulan memberikan sinar , menjelmalah malam Syawal pertama .

Mari kita sama-sama memanjatkan kesyukuran kepada yang Esa , menganugerahkan kesempatan pada sanah ini untuk memohon maaf kepada kedua ibu & ayah , saudara , sahabat handai , guru-guru dan yang lain . Tidak lupa kepada yang tiada , ingatlah pada mereka dan hadiahkanlah dua yang terbaik .

Satu yang aku harapkan dengan sepenuh jiwa raga dan hati yang sayup , ingin aku memohon maaf kepadamu , wahai wanita Islam yang ku hormati . maafkanlah diriku atas segala kesilapan yang telah ku lakukan kepadamu , setiap hari aku berdua agar tercipta lembaran baru di-antara kita , dua hati yang ikhlas dan murni menjadi satu demi mengukuhkan ukhuwah ini .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI , MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN kepada semua ! Maafkanlah jika Izzati ada salah dan silap , tersinggung perasaan anti , ~~I'm cheeky , that's me ,~~ so please forgive me ! Let's happy-happy this Raya okay ! ;D

Ikhlas dari hati ,
Norizzati Salim

We-ll-Be-A-Dream

2010-09-07T13:43:00.002+08:00

Secondary 3 Maju / STM / Sec 3 Maju / Menengah 3 Maju / Men 3 Maju.

18 out of 34 of Sec 3 Maju 10'.

Iftar with Kemajuan @ Chicken Champ, 6/9/10.

Shoe-shopping. Raining cats and dogs. Meyaw2, woof2, like Jihanny Doggy.

Westernian delights. Floats and Ice Teas. Colorful dresses.

Beautiful smiles. Based on a great friendship. & a loving Teacher Sarah.

♥ WE'RE STUPENDOUS. ~~[awesome]~~ ♥

all night long

2010-09-03T16:36:00.001+08:00

welcome to september twenty-ten. ;D

like honestly , since my infancy times , ~~it's the month i hate most~~ , reasons is equal to unknown . i've gone through long weeks since the last days of august and the genesis of this month . foooohhhhhhh ,^ ^ i can put a little grine as a feature on my face , cause six last days of Ramadhan Kariim is a holiday .

for all that , i only thank Allah and whoever did the term-three school break . weehee ;D

i got sponsored to experience through #Fried Rice Paradise The Musical ! seeing that my true-honey is in action . hehehe he's an ultimate hot-stuff , though i reiterated the offer , i still love you and will support you from the back ! yeay ,^ ^

aww ... this year round , i didn't do the apologizing moments with the ustazahs nor with my fellow classmates , but cum iftar , insyaAllah an opportunity with maju , ustazahs ? when school reopens , it is still taken into account , cum raya , off to their houses ! ;D

Just The Two Of Us

2010-08-29T15:58:00.000+08:00

fight like a warrior

2010-08-25T20:27:00.001+08:00

Part 1:

always hope and expect with full-literal-confidence that wednesday will always be a brilliantly-intelligent day . forever, till my golden ages . ;)

hahaha i made this cute statement in the morning when i saw you . i was like , silence ,,, " hey ! you look like that ice-cream with rainbow colors and it's verryyy sweeettt too ! yes ! PADDLE POP !!! " it's just that your dress match with those ~~uwearupthere~~ and those heels , innocence beneath . ;)

I MISS MY PADDLE POP SO MUCH. JUST WISH I COULD TELL YOU WHAT I THINK.

Part 2:

you're my closest motivator , elle est no longer mine personally . please keep influencing my mind with positive vibes . i really need it to continue my journey on being a great and brilliant student . my one request from you . thank you so much for what you've done and all , above all . ;)

Part 3:

(24th.August.2010)

‎" You may perceive my smile every single day. But a smile doesn't convey a million vows. "

But above all the things, broken-hearted, broken-faith, is the black & white that prejudices her life. That's why, when she wants to see your sweetest smile, it feels like in seventh heaven, and just do it no matter how exasperated you may be at that juncture. Cause deep down, she knows that it may be the last blissfulness she gets from you, if Allah won't let her stay another day. ♥

betterstopyouractions

2010-08-23T16:28:00.001+08:00

ya Allah , why did i hate that friend suddenly after reading what she wrote ? is it because of jealousy ? yes indeed , i really hate undergoing jealousy , it stabs my heart repeatedly until i bleed a bowl of striking-red blood ...

all this while , not updating doesn't mean there's no anecdote , it's just things to be told , all were just too nonsensical / despondent / exhilaration . the blends of these emotions really shook my brain , till i'm so stressed out .

i've been struggling on to stay positive every single day , through ups-&-downs . but sometimes , i feel like abandoning those good hopes , so that living will always be a better choice .

every single day of ramadhan , i pray for everything to be proficient and have great feelings everyday . ;)

just bless me, oh God

2010-08-15T15:27:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan Kariim, Ramadhan Kariim, Ramadhan Kariim,.

oh no updates right ? there's quite much to do , especially this wonderful month , let's talk/story less , and do good things more . one advice .

if there's a chance , i will make another big move tomorrow , if God wills . one note .

i just hope everything will be good , and for it to be better . all this relationship & friendship matters , just be awesome enough for me as one of His' slave . one prayer .

Outreach Of Love

2010-08-08T17:50:00.001+08:00

under not , oh not of any circumstances , i feel the need to update . so , friday was a blessed ! we celebrated our beloved friend's 45th birthday in school ! she's forty-five and it's old but we still love her as much . like how they say , ~~' old people smell nice , they smell like old people . '~~ oh willy wonka , you're so elegant . i was a back-up for the ' Don't Forget The Lyrics ' Ma'arif Edition contest , and i saved the day ! if i hadn't known the blank lyrics , we wouldn't have gotten those cute lil' mars choc.bar . hahaha thanks to me .

ans Sec 3 Maju had the best celebration ! shoosh , this is our BIG secret . i tell you k . we continued celebrating in the science lab , singing & dancing , just like one . ~~we very the enjoying !~~

Donc, c'est tout ce que j'ai à mettre à jour, pour l'instant , I'm enjoying the holidays ! bye-bye. ;)

In Other Words;

2010-08-03T19:28:00.001+08:00

MasyaAllah ! mumtaz, jayyid jiddan Maarif ! Maarif is awesome , again , I repeat , jayyid-jayyid-jayyid ! 2nd place for overall banats category for IMG 2010 . this is called total victory , in sayings , i can see the light !

so , hey , hello . so today i made my own 'not sensible'/silly quote . but it's cute though ;

" It’s white, it melts in your mouth, it’s wrapped, and most vitally it’s edible. It’s Toblerone White Chocolate ! "

-Queen Of Soul .vs. Dark Charmer

no , i hate/don't eat white chocolates . they force themselves back down out my mouth after salivating it . yucky-yuckz . this is so ~~fcukingrandomyeah~~ .

Awesomenesssssss

2010-07-31T18:11:00.000+08:00

can you believe it ? can you , can you , can you ? hahaha ! i'm so happy that maarif track & field has done us all proud ! we're a bunch of proud friend , proud students and proud girls . alhamdulillah , thank you Allah for your blessings . they did it so greatly !

i can see the light and faith in every of the sprinters . you've done us proud .

TGIF!

2010-07-30T21:13:00.002+08:00

very thankful to God for his blessings all this while , especially today . i think it's blessing in disguise . i'm fine , thank you . i'm so happy today because there's so much to be cheerful about , than those that ruined my moments in the day .

what made me happy ? let the numbers explain it all . ~~788-461-0975-62346-04751~~ fibonnaci theory ! hahaha XD of course not , here it is; my persuasion works for this someone . thank me , we felt and saw the presence; i did what i've been desiring for the past months; your presence fired-up my braveness to play it back.

and Ellen quits American Idol . why oh why , my dear Ellen ? i'm still your number one and biggest fan in Singapore ! be proud of me , i love you forever , i declare .

Fifteenth

2010-07-28T18:31:00.001+08:00

^ ^ selamat ulangtahun ^ ^ selamat ulangtahun ^ ^ selamat ulangtahun, sayang ^ ^ selamat ulangtahun ^ ^

alhamdulillah , i've officially turned 15 years-old . and i feel old . hahaha . today felt so different . a lot happened . ranging from the worst - to the best !

well , the worst remains a secret between us . She & I . i shouldn't talk about her . it's really worthless . furthermore , i have my sec 3 maju ! thanks to all my girls for the wishes, prayers and birthday gifts ! and i also wanna thanks ustzh z for the prayer . hahaha , chocolate or dua ?

the best was when tch sarah came ! and i was overwhelmed , no wonder i had butterflies in my tummy . hahaha , and thanks oh my dearest lovely tch sarah bibi !

;)

Lailatul-Jamilah

2010-07-26T19:53:00.001+08:00

Ya Allah, hamba-Mu ini bermohon di malam yang penuh barakah-Mu ini
Ya Allah, berikanlah ibu dan ayahku kekuatan, kesihatan, umur yang panjang, rezeki yang berkat
Ya Allah, teguhkanlah iman kami sekeluarga agar dapat terus beribadah kepadaMu
Ya Allah, permudahkanlah perjalananku mencari ilmu di jalan-Mu
Ya Allah, redhailah jihad hamba-Mu ini
Ya Allah, berikanlah yang terbaik untuk hubungan persaudaraan antara kami, umat-Mu
Ya Allah, hamba-Mu ini memohon, teguhkanlah segala hubungan hamba-Mu ini dengan temannya yang dicintai
Ya Allah, hamba-Mu ini tidak sanggup meneruskan perjuangan dengan kehilangannya seorang muallimah
Ya Allah, rapatkanlah lagi talian persaudaraan antara kami, umat-Mu, ya Rabbi
Ya Rabbi, Ya Ghafur, Ya Rahim

May our prayers be answered by Allah in this beautiful Nisfu Syaa'ban night. Allahumma Ameen. ♥

Alexandria,,,

2010-07-25T09:49:00.003+08:00

Perjalanannya mungkin tidak jelas

Tujuannya ternyata direstui

Kita berjihad fi sabilillah

Hanya doa dapat ku iringkan

Moga Allah Yang Esa

Melindungimu sebaik-baik perlindungan

good morning . so i'm not in the mood to do exactly anything . i'm totally down cause Tra didn't reply my message . but i know she's just very~~/too~~ busy with preparing for her Azhar trip last night . but i've send my regards to her and asked tch to hug her in behalf of myself . i will miss you , Tra . D;

so , i kept praying for everything to be going well for all the sisters . they're preaching your ilm' , ya Allah . show them the right path , guide them through it , protect them every second , may they be a better person . ;D

InsyaAllah , allahumma Ameen. ♥

S.P.R.T.D

2010-07-23T21:12:00.003+08:00

we may not be close to each other anymore, but you're still in my heart . i keep youin my heart and locked it . even if you make mistakes , love remains the same . i just wish we're like before , rainbows arise , stars glow , Mr.Al , the witnesses of how much we cherish our relationship.

but now , you said i'm no longer the one who cared so much about you . ain't no mountain high enough , ain't no river wide enough , ain't not fire hot enough , ain't no wind cold enough , cinderella always & forever ;

[ P.S. I ♥ U ]

Up on the hilly-billy peak

2010-07-21T18:48:00.001+08:00

hello everyone ! yesterday we , Sec 3 Maju , went hiking at Bukit Timah with Tch Sarah ! it was a fun experience because this was my second time that i went hiking . this was much more challenging than the previous one ! i fell down 3 times in total ! i injured myself again and again and again . that's three ! hahaha ;)

first , we had to walk-up so called the 'Twillight Path' , they called it . it was very steep , no stairs , just slippery path all the way up . it was cool cause there were mists all around the forest . i walked alone for like 5 minutes just to appreciate , Subhanallah , Allah's creation ! then , we had to decide , the summit or the quarry ? c'mmon ! who doesn't know I'M-IN-LOVE with lakes ! but , at the same time , reaching the peak of Bukit Timah is my goal . so there we go . a shorter way to success ust be tougher . yes , indeed . the stairs was like very high we had to get our legs up and up non-stop . and it was very muddy since it was raining . we didn't feel the heavy rain because according to geography , the canopy layer of tropical rainforest is thick and they forms crown-interlock between canopies , so it was like raining cats and dogs for us .

Alhamdulillah ! despite of falling down once when going up to the summit , there comes another great achievement ! we then cam-whored , and took class photos ! i was so happy to see us . what comes up , must go down ... alright , let's get down ! again , we took another very difficult route . but the scenery was better , you see the plants , sunlight and a mini-waterfall ! we splashed the water to our tired faces , and tch said read bismillah before drinking , and only two palms of water allowed ! refreshing enough . when there were light and we had to go up a verry-slippery-hill , i fell down like really hard ! gosh , alhamdulillah , i didn't like slipped down . so like 10 minutes later , finally last plane of stairs and i tripped but it wasn't hard . so , i was the dirtiest . oopppsss ... i mean my jeans were dirty liek mud everywhere . yucks .

now pain everywhere , but overall , Hiking at Bukit Timah with Sec3 Maju & Tch Sarah was challenging yet a great & fun experience. ;)

♥ SEC 3 MAJU ♥

All Because Of You

2010-07-19T18:30:00.001+08:00

hello everyone . today is another Monday , but not typical , it's not the same . guess what ? i'll tell later okay . so , today basically not much thing interesting things happened in school . but today i reached school at 6.25am and i was alone in the dark at level two until Ustzh Z arrived tem-minutes later . alhamdulillah , " I am not alone , you are with me ... " hahaha , she asked me to help her bring her bags inside the h.o.d office and i went in ! and i didn't catch a glimpse of the place , i recorded it in my mind ! what a cheerful and colourful workplace ! ;)

i'm very happy today . triple happiness; Tomorrow Excursion to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve ;) going after class @ 2.30pm with my beloved maju-ians and Tch Sarah ! soo happy , wearing jeans ! i mean like when we get to wear jeans during school events right ? yeah .

Friday's CCA regarding Bulan Bahasa 2010; yup , and actually i'm still not sure of volunteering to be one of the representatives for maju , just afraid i would dissapoint them . but insyaAllah , i will do them proud , we will do everyone proud ! ;)

Taufik Batisah retweeted my tweet ! ; believe me oh , unicorns ! Hamdan lillah , Alhamdulillah , Syukran , MasyaAllah ! i'm so happy , here's the proof okay . i will wait for him to reply my tweets, and follow me on Twitter . this is only the beginning . i can see the light ! ;)

I ♥ TAUFIK BATISAH

Cinta & Kasih

2010-07-18T18:39:00.001+08:00

Mari bangsaku mari saudara

Kita gunakan bahasa bonda

Sebagai lidah penggugah rasa

Cinta bahasa cinta budaya

Demi cinta kepada budaya

Kita penatar bahasa bonda

Bahasa maju budaya jaya

Maruah bangsa terpelihara

Cintailah bahasa ibunda

Cintailah budaya pusaka

Bahasa yang menjunjung budaya

Budaya nilai maruah bangsa

Tajuk: "Bahasa Menjunjung Budaya"

Artis: Taufik Batisah

Susunan lagu yang begitu cantik, Senikatanya amat bermakna, didendangkan oleh seorang yang bersuara lunak . Bulan Bahasa 2010 akan berakhir dalam masa 9 hari, tetapi itu tidak bermakna berakhirlah perbualan kita dalam Bahasa Ibunda. Teruskan berbahasa Melayu dengan lebih kerap lagi ya!

Bahasa kita, Gunakanlah. ;)

smile.blondey.oh.e

2010-07-17T17:37:00.000+08:00

Bonjour ya'll ! i've been missing to update my blog but been very busy with school . but now i'm back in the house ! yeay . ;D

so , alot has happened for the past eleven-days . too much , yet no update . sorry , guess it will just remain memories and experience for me , and all around me . well , the one thing i remembered is that i was disappointed last week but got over it when i spend time with that individual . now , i'm happy . hahaha ;D

just if you wanna know my update , follow me on #Twitter . i'm always tweeting , that's why . so , homeworks for term-e-third are always pilling-up for us . but kinda loving it when i manage to do it . since we're still in bulan bahasa 2010 period , i wanted to post in bahasa ibunda but it's so funny . furthermore , i have a malay essay to do , ~~so not gonna use up the words for blog .~~ ;D

yesterday was an experience . i became a hero for savng someone's life , hahaha , kinda . saved someone from hunger , sickness , and the most freaking part , fainting ! hahaha we know what happened , but for you not to ask , and just smile and know that i'm happy okay . ;D

Hide Personal / Run Errands

2010-07-06T17:21:00.001+08:00

because i didn't get to update for last week , today's update gonna consist of saturday and sunday's stuffs , alright ? ~~what the heck kind of question is that !~~ hahaha XD

saturday had a talk with her finally . she said she was okay , just some complicated , secretive personal home problems , so just ignore that . so , i told her that i miss her so much . cause like the last time we talked was on wednesday . three lonely days are over ! wow , finally , our mouths are throwing out sweet words . alhamdulillah , now everything's fine .

;D ;D

then sunday's turn for a talk . it was the grand finale of Yescom . the sale went out well although we still have unsold products . i really gained a precious experience , especially when it comes to business . and she was there , since morning , hahaha . and i bought her this personalized test-tube . and she thanked me for the present . well , everything is fine when someone appreciates your gift . what's sweeter was she called me after she walked halfway to go home , telling me she's going back and to meet her first . so , yeah , sweet friends , we hugged each other after three days plus missing it . we missed each other so much . back to business ! the support from Maarifians was 4.5/10 . booooo ! but i guess they're just busy , and some , guess what , forgot the event on that day ! it's okay , at least overall , we had fun .

peace & love

Cherished still, 02/07/10

2010-07-05T11:39:00.003+08:00

sorry for not updating . been very busy all this while rigt, so here's the update .

last Friday , we went to East Coast Park to celebrate Youth Day ! it was a great celebration event , rated the best Youth Day celebration , yeah , hahaha . well , it wasn't like a picnic-type of celebration . instead , we had amazing race ! it's so cool ya'know .

so , the race started in school . we were trusted to be independently get to east coast by taking public transportation . i belonged to group 11 , with maju-ians like mas , fiks and insy . we took bus 13 and went we arrived at the alighting point , another group was ahead of us . we started to run and they followed us ! and when we stopped , they also stopped . wth ?! then we went all through-down the underground tunnel .

the amazing race consisted of ten-stations which we were only given a clue for location & password for the first pit-stop . after a station completed , we were shown clues & password for the next station . *forward* so many stations , we ran , ran and ran like hardly other group see us walking in the park . then we were off to the last station which was my favorite because the password to find the ustazah that in-charged of the staion was too easy for me . " Aishwarya Rai meets the Wonder Girls " ! of course i knew who the ustazahs were right ? hahaha XD

and out of our expectations , we won the amazing race ! group 11 was entitled to be the first-place winner of Youth Day Amazing Race 2010 ! woohoo , it's a blast ! and then it was time to go back after that , the sun were already gone and all we felt was strong breeze and dark clouds on us .

[ Wow ! That shades, and make-up, and perfume, *meltzzzzzz!!!* Like really, I'm so happy I saw you at least. ^ ^ ]

Eclipse, please, Mr.AL

2010-06-27T18:00:00.002+08:00

Sempena Bulan Bahasa 2010, marilah kita sama-sama dengan kerap lagi berbahasa Melayu . Bukankah bahasa Ibunda kita ini begitu indah sekali .

Bahasa Kita, Gunakanlah - TB ;D

hello , greetings , bonjour . ~~now this reminds me of english lesson~~ . woohoo ! alhamdulillah , going back to school tomorrow ! i miss school so much . but hereby thank the June holiday for being good to me although you kept me busy . ;D

so , i've stated my new semester resolution right yesterday ? i have two new ones . here it is :

Take stairs every morning in school after assembly
Clean my class when it's my duty and help as much as I can so no more complaints

so , i got a message from her just now she has arrived safely here . alhamdulillah . allahumma ammen . now , i will miss the world clock whee i saved L.A , San Fransisco time and looked at it for a few times a day noting the time there . but happier that it's finally coming back to spirit .

that's all for today . the last Sunday we can boogey-around but at the same time prepare enough for tomorrow . epic cool it's time for school ! yeay .

peace & love

Whataya Want From Me

2010-06-26T20:07:00.001+08:00

good evening folks . this is ofiicially the last Saturday we can have fun with no homeworks and assignments . it was quite a boring day i might say . but today is the last night ya'll can sleep late as for tomorrow , sleep early or else you might skip school ! hahahaha ;D

i have so much to talk about . i have a new semester resolution . lol okay , i know . but kinda want to be a better person , yeah ! so , here it is :

Exercise every weekdays @ 4am in the morning . An hour should do .
Try to have remedials twice in a week for my weak subjects
Revise everyday
Play computer for only 45 minutes a day
Practise drawing Monstercity and Graffiti
Don't come home late ! Once school's done , straight home ! No more hanging-out in lab or what , except when having Geog remedial lessons
Start living healthily . I'm trying to be a Vegetarian , not a Vegan . But I will still eat fish as I need it to keep my body stored with Omega 3

so , yeah , so many resolutions ain't ? i just hope i could stick to it . about being a vegetarian , i was motivated last week when i watched #The Ellen DeGeneres Show whereby one of the episodes they were talking about their new diets that changed their lives . and Ellen did a monologue on passing the message of how healthy you can be living a vegan life . and i was thrilled and motivated . that's the recap .

and i should mention this . I miss my nickname , Shaizz . ♥

more tomorrow . the last day of updates before school reopens .

peace & love

Just Go With The Flow

2010-06-25T09:32:00.001+08:00

NO COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT!

good morning . *hachoo!* sneezing , please , don't make me sick , gonna go back to school in two days ! time is moving really fast like that kid called Dash ! so , today is the last friday and the last weekday before school reopens in the June holiday period . and today is gonna be the last day of hecticness dealing an enterpreneurship project named Yescom . so , today is the wrap-up day , c'est tout .

oh , and i'm not missing my chance to watch for the final time of #The Ellen DeGeneres Show in the morning and in the evening ! nope , i'm not gonna miss it ! but for the evening , just pray my hope will be reached ! yeah , when school reopens , i will still catch-up with the show without fail for sure . ;D

so , c'est tout , blog makeover , i love it . and the last post was emo , but now i kept thinking in my mind to be a stronger person each day . i know i can do it .

peace & love

One-Two

2010-06-22T20:24:00.002+08:00

i am going through a moment of disease , lethargicness , jealousy and sadness . oh yeah , i'm feeling down . boo ya' ! let me just explain one-by-one .disease comes from the fact of my emotions . i worry too much . lethargicness comes from all this assignments going on . jealousy comes from you which i called bias , another thing , you're too much . well , might as well i say , jealousy is hold by anger . sadness comes from ... oh dear , don't you know how happy i was when you updated ? but right at the moment when i saw your message to her , my legs were so weak , my brain jammed , my heart watered out tears . i'm not gonna say much . but i think there's something wrong . but i thought you said you won't think the other way . lie , lie , lie .

just a message for you :

" But at least , appreciate what I'm doing every single time treating you like a precious dime "

peace & love

relax & take it easy

2010-06-20T19:38:00.000+08:00

i desperately need some time out on the beautiful streets of singapore . go to the movies , watch toy story 3 in 3-D , eat and sit back and gossip at pyramid restaurant , cruise around about with a perfect dancing aura ,cross my legs and do graffiti on my drawing book , have some quality time with you , unfortunately the last wish is totally impossible if i were to do it before school reopens .

it's been a week now . furthermore , today is the second last sunday of the june holiday twenty-ten , dearies . it's time to realize there's no more fun time . my days are filled with hecticness . yescom , studies , clean-up . i don't know what's happening to my usual happy holidays . and yeah , this holiday many have said with their own lips . they realized they were not themselves , they includes me . i'm getting crazier/more pious . clueless .

Farewell/Goodbye

2010-06-14T19:51:00.000+08:00

hey peeps ! ~~it's a monday , so brush the blues off away !~~ cool aint it ? so , yesterday was a Sunday full of sorrow . once upon a ...

queen went with her friend to fly princess off the plane to L.A , California , in United States of America . upon reaching terminal two of singapore changi airport , queen was so awkward as there was a circle of strangers to her , not to princess . despite of the awkwardness , it was quality time before she separates from princess for the next fifteen long days . it wasn't long before princess has to go in to the resticted gates for travellers . so first , she gave her friend a hug and kisses , and a few sweet meaningful words . and it was queen's turn . queen was feeling sad but quiet at the same moment . princess hugged queen tightly and we felt the warmth of our friendship reflected upon the precious hug . then , after the long hug , princess gave queen a kiss on her right-cheek and queen appreciated so much as we'll be away from each other for a long time . we all stood in-front of the gate saying our last goodbyes . and queen talked to princess . queen told princess , saying she hoped princess could go to the Warner.Bros Studio to buy for her Ellen DeGeneres exclusive bottle . and princess said , why not bring Ellen back ? it was a lame joke from princess but queen just misses that lameness from princess . yes , and it was time . princess checked-in and now queen's tear-duct was filling with tears of sadness , seeing princess go . but queen didn't cry cause she knew she needs to be strong for the next fifteen-days without her princess . from a long distance between the gate , princess waved to queen and the others . queen waved back while praying and saying in her heart . queen prayed for princess's safety . with the last words followed afterwards .

and all along the walking alone by queen to sit somewhere , she messaged princess saying " I pray for your safe journey okay . I already miss you :( " . and princess then replied " Aww ameen ! I will miss you :( " . princess then called her friend who was sitting with me infront of the flight-list board . her friend told princess that queen actually has something to show you that she didn't get to . so then queen received a message from princess " What you got that you never give me ? " and i replied " Got something . I'll just say it here ok . I MISS YOU EVEN WHEN YOU'RE AROUND . WHAT MORE IF YOU'RE FAR AWAY . BUT I WILL KEEP PRAYING FOR YOU . I LOVE YOU " . and there the message was sent to princess . she then replied , " Awww you're super sweet ! I'll keep the message . Thank you . " and that was the last message . looking at princess's scheduled flight , queen felt like crying again but she controlled it . it was time for her holiday . bye-bye now .

so basically i love the essay so much . when i put full emotions into myself , i write better and nicely . so that was what eventually happened . so , this is the first day . alhamdulillah , just got the news that she has arrived in L.A. safely . thank Allah .

peace & love

Baby Cupid's

2010-06-10T19:22:00.005+08:00

hello friends/mates . so today i planned to surprise her by going to the practise . but i was kinda grounded cause got a scolding that day for ~~playing with the ocean~~ . lol , that doesn't sound right . well , yeah , and can't cause had a last minute thing going on . oh , in anyways , i broke the surprise to her and she's touched . awww ...

it’s a thurday . two days more , which is sunday , she’s gonna fly-off to L.A for her holiday . i thought of surprising her today by coming to the practise . but i’m kinda grounded , so too bad , i can’t . i’m gonna miss her terribly . well , my friend got a plan to send her off at the airport this sunday . i really wanna go so i can sad sad together . i know it’s just a holiday . but we talked nearly everyday , so you should know how it feels .

I miss your hug, I miss your laughter, I miss your jokes, I miss your lameness, I MISS YOU. ♥

Together ♥

2010-06-09T15:55:00.004+08:00

hello people ! ~~i'm on top of the sky ! ouch , and i fall !~~ lol , okay , it's time to write a long descriptive essay on yesterday's gathering ! woo-hoo . ;D

so , yesterday we had this gathering going on at East Coast Park/Beach . we went there as early as ten-plus in the morning . i'm the earliest , as always . and i waited for them . then we walked to the park and it was raining . but it's like dedee , wan , kai , dayah and i was like playing roller-blade and double-cycled in the dry season or what ? no , no umbrellas and all . we played with the rain . it was freezingly-cool ! and then came maira and amalia . we then settled down by the shelter and rested for a few minutes . and then came inas . so , then it was no longer raining ! so , what more do you expect ? camwhore by the sea ! yeay , we camwhored by the beach , by the sea , by the blue sea which was polluted a week back but it has recovered . so it was nearly one-thirty afternoon and i asked them to rush because the gathering was meant to meet Tch Azizah !!! and we went to McD and had our lunch there . while amalia and i were talking , we saw Tch Sarah & Tch Ziza outside and rushed to open the door for her , i mean them ! and i was like smiling from ear-to-ear ! i was so happy to see her after not meeting for nearly a year , to complete it this july ! so we ate , ate , and ate ! and camwhored too ! then off to the beach again and this time we had so much more fun !!! i can't describe it in words ! i was so happy ! and i got sabo-ed by Tch Ziza , she asked me to go deeper and deeper into the sea , and yeah , i fell ! thanks to maira too for splashing and it made me shock to death ! hahaha ... we also throwed sands to Tch Sarah for ultimate revenge ! yeah , it was super fun . then we stopped at around four and packed and prayed and home . ~~there goes the essay . 100/100 !~~

but sadly , i didn't get to hug Tch Azizah and kiss her before the farewell . but she said anytime can meet her again . InsyaAllah ...

you can check on dayah's facebook for the photos and blog for videos . ;D

oh yeah , and i now officially have #Tumblr !!!

peace & sincerity

Doomed

2010-06-07T10:31:00.000+08:00

hey/hello once again ! updates right now . ;D

ok , so saturday when on a date with humaira and amalia [ but mali went home first] . we went to etp to see the ~~flea market there but it turned out disappointing . four vendors vendored the stall , only them checked-into the slots~~ . so then we didn't buy the admission to the rides in the first place so we had to buy $one coupons and we bought a $nine coupons and ventured the pirate ship and raced the go-kart ! it was ultimate fun.

then yesterday was a sunday ! i go 'rewang' the whole day and quite had a good time too . yeah , and guess what ? i just knew i was related to Taufik !!! can you imagine that ? yes , i'm related to him ! wait a minute ~ whatcha saying like that ~ lol . here's the truth , i'm related to taufik salleh , the actor from suriatv . no , i'm not related to my darling Taufik Batisah . it's my bad , and i don't mind , better not related . i already love the way we are now .

so , i have made an announcement on #Facebook on the outing for tomorrow . we , sec 3 maju , are all invited to meet Tch Azizah tomorrow ! miss her much lots rite ? so the plan is tomorrow at 1.30 pm . i know it's kinda late for some and for me too , but that's her only free time so appreciate it ! and the place where we gonna meet . this is so an unsure thing . so you girls go decide and discuss ! read the message on FB . it;s better to reply fast so it's not gonna be that last minute .

there you go . not much of fun but try to keep it for tomorrow InsyaAllah .

Peace & Love

crazier, crazier, crazier

2010-06-04T20:35:00.001+08:00

hey . as promised , an update a day in june ~~so yeah .~~ but don't expect much . i'm so lethargic today . i'll give you the reason . later on not now okay .

so this morning , went shopping and bought the tee i have been wanting since like three months ago or so ... and yeah was delighted ! and then i went hunting for shoes again . this time i found nike & north star only ... i really wanted to see adidas collection so much . but it wasn't sold there like everywhere around mall . so then after spending one-quarter of the fifty-bucks , i thought of buying the liquid eyeliner i wanted from #The Body Shop but i had a second thought of saving money first , so then maybe next week . not much difference i know .

i'm giving up and losing hope on this . i have been waiting for you to talk to me since yesterday . i have waited for you to go online today so we could talk since morning . but no green sign button light up on my facebook chat box named , you . i don't want to text you cause i'm really afraid you will get annoyed . i don't want that of course . but wish you knew i've been waiting for much time . cheer me up , that's what i want from you . ♥

love much xoxo

Two Stars And A Shadow

2010-06-03T11:23:00.002+08:00

hello ! sorry for the late update ! still feels alot of lethargicness from camp ! so far so good . the campsite was like really just asking one thing , you need to survive at this place . yup , we did ! cmmon , two days and one night . so camp was great ! alhamdulillah , ~~no scary phenomena~~ .

i kinda don't like the telematch game . the charade was okay . the night walk with games was making people go blind but kinda like it . the food was normal and fulfilling . the bunk and bed and toilet was survival case . i didn't sleep the whole morning . the night walk ended like when the clock struck twelve midnight , so no sleep for me till the next morning where we woke up at 2.50am . the fun thing was i became Greg from kid nation tv series that day . i shook the sleepy-heads bed , and yeah what Greg did , and i love my job , but not as cruel and as rude as Greg of course . so that second day , it all ended at six in the evening , my group won third place ! go dark green ! everyone knows i hated green so much , and a friend gave me a reason why i was chosen to be in this team . it is because i hated the color so much . LOL .

need i mention ? keep you ego away please . i'm super irritated and annoyed . total ignorance was what you gave me , not even spirit . whatever , you're the one who's making me anti-you . change , change , change .

so yeah that's the story . it's june holidays already ! my english is crapping-up . and i hate it . so i'll update more tomorrow . cheers . ;D

The Heart Is Such A Fragile Organ

2010-05-29T19:26:00.002+08:00

this is a wrap for the month of May2010 . so , in total twelve posts , lucky number still no matter what happens . three days of emptiness , what's wrong ? busy lately although the holiday has started like three days ago , but i care less so i went to school on thursday when not needed . i've told you that aiyt ? move on .

I love the day called "Yesterday" , 28/05/2010 . ♥

majdah , kaiyisha , syafiqah , dayah and i went to tch sarah's house at kembangan , windy heights !!! to do the yescom thing and i had to finish the geography plates project . we had a great time . i was lost actually , quite i may say on the way there alone since i was early and punctual , hahaha , and they're late like uno-hour late ? ~~bulldover !~~ so , we played the playground first for like thirty-minutes . it was so fun , photos on #Facebook . we played like kids in elementary school during recess time . then when we were going back , we felt that time was so short and it's time to go home ... aaawwww ... so we decided to go play at the playground somemore and asked tch sarah along and she offered us all a ride on her #Honda Super Four bike !!! i was thrilled and screamed yeay ! i was so eager , when i got on the bike , i was like putting my head down , i was so damn nervous . first time on such big bike ! but it was so windy during the ride and no helmet and i tried not to hold her waist and i did it ! i could ride it w/o any grip ! ;D

and so , tomorrow and monday there will be no updates . 'perkhemahan dakwah 2010' can't wait for it ! i'm kinda scared and afraid and nervous though . but gotta get over it and think of the advantage and new things i will learn and the fun i'm gonna have with them . so , please pray for our safety and health during the camp . i pray to have a good time despite of broken relationships , i have maju(s) , i can do it !

{love and peace}

I Learnt More On You

2010-05-26T20:38:00.001+08:00

good evening/night i mean . i'm so eager and excited to go to school tomorrow ! actually , we're not suppose to come tomorrow , but i lend a helping hand to give out the yescom coupons , i think so that's what i have to do . somemore , i have to collect something . and one more , i have to finish a geography plate tectonic kinda project . not a school project , just helping teacher out . fun idea !

so , yesterday was spring cleaning day . ~~it didn't turned out like one~~ . like a few of us were cleaning the windows , and some the tables , the floor , the fan was the 'fanatic' part , and i did the door . hahaha , the windows and the door was my favorite . i know what that means , don't ask . ~~[in my own dream world]~~ and you were standing right beside me , but you simply ignored me , and as you walked , i shouted my gay voice saying , " Ignorance ! Ignorance ! Ignorance ! " like again and again . whatever .

so , today we attended a health talk which was exciting and good , but most found it boring and they fell so sleepy , down to the lala land ... i'm awake ! no worries . and then , we had yescom stuffs going on . i don't know about that . then , like a few of us helped the geography thing out , but not finished , it's ok . left with the cutting and pasting and magnet-ing .

and then , near two o'clock , some of us were not back yet , include me in ! duuhhh , as usual . stayed late till four o'clock . i talked with kak teera ! cool right ? i kinda miss her , ~~so we basically talked crap~~ . hahaha , priceless expression still , no harm , i love it . we were talking about ~~my BFF~~ which was ~~her BF/hubby~~ . bulldover ! i can share . just in my note , in my words , in my speech , seven years of never-ending friendship . ;D

oh , and we talked today , about something important , nothing to do with the relationship thing , but your response , i appreciate it . your way of talking , you're different .

so , more coming up , bye-bye .

munching golden-pops

2010-05-24T20:32:00.001+08:00

hey y'all ! i got back home like the past two-and-a-half hours . so yeah , still exhausted , so don't expect much . my legs wear and tear ! nevermine , yes , that's what i said . cause wore my new shoes today ! first time babe .

hahaha ... basically only the four of us went . me , dayah , wan , inas . we met @ somerset at 12 pm . i was three minutes late , like honestly , how many times have i reached late ? like once ? yeah , uno temps . so , we were like really going no-way around . ~~we don't quite know our way around~~ . so we walked and walked , and there it was standing with spectacular clothes on himself ! the orchard cathay cinelesure building of course . that's where we watched the movie . so we went by escalator , looking around excitedly , but no shopping cause we were like late for booking . so , we decided to take the lift like after two levels . we were so kinda blind not to see the guide , and we pressed on eight and nine . we went out at level eight and oh-am-gee ! K-Box ? wth rite ?! the smell of alcohol and cigarettes stinging our noses and damaging our smart brains , dirtied our clothes ! yaaiikkksss ... then , we went down to buy the tix-es . oh , what movie ? THE LAST SONG !!! i've been wanting to watch it since like before it even premiered in the cinema . hahaha ... the movie started at like 12.40 ...

we were already honestly expecting that we're gonna cry , like whatever . humans have tears in their tear gland . ~~bulldover !~~ so , we cried . i cried repeatedly , even when ronnie got separated from will , i cried . especially when jonah's father died , i cried heavily , like the rain flooding the town of new york ... *sob-sob* ending also i cried because of the song when i look at you by miley herself . touched my heart and soul . and liam hensworth was so damn hot ! yeah , so then ... ~~' pretty woman , walking down the street '~~ hahaha ... camwhored duuhhh ! and went to shaw house for late-lunch . basically , all the way i was hunting for shoes-on-demand . love them all !!! ;D

LOVE IS FRAGILE - Ronnie/Jonah's father

Musical Girl

2010-05-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

good afternoon !!! i am so happy today because i get to really relax my mind out , and finally not much talking . hehehe ... yeah , my voice is back , not a hundred% , but it's back bit-by-bit , thanks for the prayers . so , i've been trying singing and all that . still ~~pitchy~~ , but somehow i thank Allah so much , at least i people can understand what i say and i don't need to repeat .

news for today . i actually have to attend the flag day this morning . but i got mc , so excuse me . a free-saturday for me . they must be having fun . i wish i could go , but i recovered like ~~roughly seventy seven point six percent~~ . hahaha , lame . my BFF is flying back to Seoul, Korea tonight for the ASEAN Traditional Orchestra . i wish you the best of luck , my dear . i love you !!! ;D

while chatting with you just now , my spirit of happiness increases ! and suddenly this came up my mind , heart and soul . i wanna be a musical girl . there's a lot of definition for it . but what i meant was that i wanna be a perfect , loving , caring , smart , sweet , romantic kind of teen girl . perfect-virgin . i wanna entertain people . i wanna have the sweetest voice in the universe . ' musical girl ' means i will sing everytime i see people , and the song should suit the agenda and situation . but what i dream for is for everything to be happy . and 'U Smile' by Justin Bieber really made me think more and more of happiness i can get , plus hardwork of course . if it leads to success , joyous it will be !

not to forget , today is my movie marathon day . had an average of two to three plan on movies . one done , The Notebook , it really touched my heart . next one up is The Lake House , it's my favorite movie ! she said " have you got the tissue ?" hahaha ... i take it with me everywhere i go . its sure is a better saturday that the last one . far better , Insyaallah .

so , that's a wrap for today . bye-bye . more tomorrow , have a great weekend ahead . ;D

Dance & Sing

2010-05-21T20:27:00.002+08:00

hello greetings and welcome to the world of blend . why i call that i am blending is because i am still thinking what to write suddenly this came up . i have a blend of lovers or best friends . let's make it clear so it will never get ~~bias~~ :

Taufik Batisah is my BFF - Seven years of great friendship/relationship and forever

Adam Lambert is my Hot Gay Guy BF [ Glambert ROCKS!!! ] - One year of great gay talk and passion for love
Ellen Degeneres is my Hilarious Best Friend - Three years of great laughters shared
Justin Bieber is my Teen Prince - One month of falling-in-love with his voice and looks
Alex Evans is my Montreal-ian Model - One year of fashion and photography love

i love them so much cause they never leave me . i wish they don't . no matter what , for Ellen , I love you so much i can't describe it . everytime i see you , i smile . everytime your show starts , i sing along and dance too . everytime you make a joke , i never fail in laughing . you made me happy every single day . you're a gifted woman .

so , yeah , short but meaningful . tasks to do . messages to answer . i love talking to people i got to knew recently cause now we missed each other already . hey , shotout to you , it was really tight yesterday . verry-warm and heartfelt . filled me with more tears but love the hug and the caress you gave . comforting and loving , ana mushtaq ilaik . je t'aime . ;D

Ice-Cream

2010-05-20T18:47:00.001+08:00

hello to all . ~~*cough-cough*~~ ya' bet , sore-throat . after 5 days then my voice fades away bunch by bunch . i can't talk clearly and my left ear and throat was hardly affected . i can't sing . well at least , i can still talk . going to clinic later to see the doctor . i wonder what kind of lozenges gonna be under the medical prescription ... i am really ~~a once a year patient~~ . good flavour please doctor . so i've been feeling sick lately and tired to update . but bought you some updates . the rose that i bought was meant for her , but i gave it to someone else since all this happened . i am still unsure whether "things will turn for a better" . i pray for it every single time i remember the matter . i have moral support . i really need that and got that from my friends . And God will always be there for me . ;D craving for popcorn(s) currently , random to the max . movies maybe next monday . and one more thing , Adam Lambert is getting hotter and hotter day by day ! Justin Bieber has turned into a man ! Ellen DeGeneres is getting more beautiful day by day !

[p.s. Have fun in Gwajung, Korea , best friend ! Saranghae ;D ]

Clarification

2010-05-17T20:10:00.000+08:00

oh Allah , no matter how much she hates me for my mistakes , i will never hate her .

oh Allah , no matter how much she's so over me , i'm not over you .

oh Allah , for how much i felt guilty ( still now ) , the guilty is for her for what i've done .

oh Allah , i'm still young and learning , please show me the right path , i really demand it .

oh Allah , i plead for your forgiveness for what i've done this few days that may break anyone's heart .

oh Allah , i will still have patience despite of this challenges you've made me faced .

oh Allah , i'm a fighter of Islam . every Muslim is and may what we do is in your path cause everything good comes from You .

oh Allah , You're the only that can help . i pray to you to show the right thing that it's gonna be .

oh Allah , if it was meant to be broken , i will redha with it .

oh Allah , but if it was meant to get better , i thank you for giving another opportunity and hope we didn't lose it in a bad way .

oh Allah , here i pray to You for the goods to be send down . You're the One .

يَا غَفُور يَا رَحِيم يَا مُهَيمِن يَا سَلام يَا مُجِيب يَا وَدُود يَا وَلِي يَا رَشِيد

inside, you're just a kid

2010-05-16T17:05:00.000+08:00

hello . i'm terribly ill now , since last night . yeah , we'll get to that later . i'm gonna talk about yesterday .

i went dancerobic class with her . it was fine , had fun with my friend too . luckily no injuries , Alhamdulillah . then after that , i went shopping with yeah , suprise guest . let me complete the sentence . i went shopping with Teacher Sarah . we went shopping around tampines to buy her gift . so got a rose and bought some paper materials to do the card . then we got McD , i thought i wanna eat my long-wanted cinnamom meltz and then the barista said that it has finished ! ~~OMG~~ . so dissapointed but had my monster-boy , double cheeseburger . so yeah , went back and we texted each other , making me jealous that she reached home in 14 minutes and i was still far away from home along in the bus . fooohhh ...

and then in the evening we fought . yes , me and her . i cried the whole night after that , and that's why i fell ill . fever and sore-throat and headache . but Alhamdulillah , headache's gone . just pray that i'll get better . ameen . ;D

so , basically , today i'm just talking to my friends to feel better . don't ask me how we fought okay . i'll solve it myself . thanks for your concern . so , that's the update . i'll update again tomorrow if i have time cause i'm baking cookies tomorrow , plan delayed cause i'm sick .

[ p.s. just so you know , you're an attention seeker . i've given it all but you don't appreciate my love dear . ]

Paparazzi

2010-05-14T20:35:00.002+08:00

i'm back to my normal-happy-cheerful-hyper-insane self ! no worries , my feelings right now ? nope , no more sad and down but nervous . ~~why o why~~ , i am nervous cause after a long time since i last go for this thing , i am going back to the dancerobic class . yeah ! i pray and pray and pray to Allah that it would be a great day as planned . and then after that , i am going shopping with someone , which you will know tomorrow if i were to tell . please , to those who knew , don't break the news by writing on the tagboard . ~~i appreaciate your mouth that seals the secret .~~

updates , updates , updates ! thirst for updates , lmao . now i've discovered that i wanna thank the school for giving maju a two day holiday right after the exams . although i didn't go out with the maju babies , i get to do something i really love ! i get to know a whole lot bunch of updates of # The Ellen DeGeneres Show !!! i was so thrilled especially when Greyson Chance , a 12-year-old web sensation singer went on Ellen's show ! go check it out on Ellen's web or Youtube . he's hot , and he's 12 and has hit puberty , and looks like justin bieber . he's gonna be phenomenal . great voice especially on the cover of paparazzi . ;D

no matter what , i'm still a fan of justin bieber . don't worry cause i won't snatched him away from any of my friends who really~~(damn)~~ love him ... but just wanna let you girls know ... I am a Belieber !!! i have so much guys , hmmm , not good , ought to be great huh ... taufik batisah , adam lambert , alex evans , justin bieber and now greyson michael chance .

~~guys are meant for girls~~ . duhh . oh yeah ! one more thing , i've been acting and feeling more gayyish lately . pardon me , don't take it wrongly . everything's still doing fine .

so , gotta get up early tomorrow . have a great weekend everyone . bye-bye . ;D

arthur's venom

2010-05-13T20:24:00.002+08:00

hey , it's only eight night and plus but the skins between my eyes trying to hold it up for two-three more hours . no school today and tomorrow ... yeah , i'll usually give that an excitement but nehh ... not now ... i miss school so much . i wonder why and now it's really unexpected , i'm so worried and afraid over situations . i don't know why ... i need to talk to you ... nooo , you're not the one , not perfect . but who else then ?

so much going on right now till i can't tell ... i'll update again tomorrow if there comes the happy mood . for one more reason why i'm like this ... she got an i-Phone , that's why . when am i gonna live a luxury life ... i wonder God , i wonder .

and you , now i feel like canceling your birthday gift off my shopping list .

Shining Party Club

2010-05-12T20:16:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to you ~ Happy Birthday to you ~ Happy Birthday , Happy Birthday ~ Happy Birthday to you ~

What more can I say ? Here's wishing you a very Happy Birthday !!! I wish you all the best in whatever good you do and you're always in my prayers . I love you . My love for you is the compound of every celebrity I love . ♥

harloo people . yes , i've been a happy ladee since morning cause it's her birthday ! yes , here's the story . she was so active and cheerful since morning . she walked around non-stop and talk on the phone and replied every birthday wish on facebook . sweet-hardworking-gentle femme . a birthday girl , no problem , she's the best . oh , your gift ? monday , i promise okay . suprise and something special .

This special post is dedicated to you on your birthday , ~~thirty-six on twelve may twenty-tenth .~~

enlighten heart

2010-05-11T18:56:00.000+08:00

Warm greetings to all of you reading this . i'm back from the long-term missing.in.action state , and now i'm officially free of studies !!! wait a minute , well , one more paper to go and that is 'bahasa-melayu' . ~~" you should just chill , mother tongue , what's so hard about it ? "~~ and there goes the devil whispering to my ears . still , eight to nine o'clock at night gonna be the study time .

so far , you gonna ask me about m.y.e mid-year examination . ~~slack~~ , but i did my best and satisfied with my work but not with the papers . what's done is gone , so gotta get my back up against the wall . ;))

hey , what's the date tomorrow ? 12/May/2010 , so what ? whatcha dictionaring , i'm celebrating a birthday ! it's a big deal ! i can't wait for tomorrow just to celebrate two things , end of m.y.e and the day when you're borned again .

hey newborn ! you're thirty-six yet you're still twenty-eight in my perspective logical thinking . here's wishing you a happy advanced birthday ! the right wish is gonna be tomorrow , officially said to you and written here .

that is not enough after two weeks and ~~three~~ two days missing . tomorrow is gonna be another day , a brand new day and a happy day . ;))

* let Adam entertain you with his sexy wild voice *

Coincidence 28

2010-04-13T18:52:00.002+08:00

i just discovered a few days ago that last time i guessed your age was 28 but you're actually older but who cares . and at the same time , my birthday falls on the 28th of July . so yeah , it was a coincidence !!! ~~not planned , i think about it again and figured it out .~~

i was so happy today . i'm thanking God for giving the feel to let me talk with my bestfriend . our relationship are like M.I.A . but i talked to you just now . it's been a long time since we sat beside each other like really close and we talked , although kinda awkward but thanks for the time . je t'aime ;))

this will be the last update unfortunately . but i will definitely be back after 12th May or on that date itself ! pray for me that i will manage and handle every of my studies to be done to prepare for the exams and that i will pass with flying colors over the top of the seven skies !!! Ameen .

Bye-bye for now .

Love ,
Shaizz

Gazing At Mr.AL

2010-04-11T14:25:00.003+08:00

gd afternoon . ~~craving to update~~ and now here i am sitting and writing . this week will be the last for me to on my computer as mid-year exams are in two weeks time . wish me luck and pray that i will excel in overall with flying colors ! Ameen .

i've been going home late this while . on friday i reached home at 7 o'clock at night and yesterday at 9.30pm at night . late-night . hate it as i have to walk on my own in the middle of the darkness . thanks to my awesome friend , the moon and the little stars , for travelling down the singapore road with me . now , this reminds me of clarke quay at night . been wanting to go there with my lovely , hope my wish or better prayers , be granted by God .

study,revise,study on my head all the time . nervous , and i know this week i'm gonna cry in school due to the thinking made lately , alot of it . i'll cry on your shoulder while i hug you . i've been dreaming of you going far away from me . please , don't such bad incidents will happen in reality world . i still love you as much as i have .

I HEART YOU MY LOVE . ♥

GoodBye and Amour ,
Shaizz

white circles under my eyes.

2010-04-08T18:23:00.010+08:00

as promised , this is my update . oh , harloo . hahaha . i've alot to share , have been thinking of it since yesterday , yet i forgot all about it . yes ! it's back up on my head .

yesterday is a wednesday . i predicted that it will be a sleepy day , but it turned out vice-versa . i wasn't sleepy , seldom , in short minutes of course , duhhh !

basically , i met my 'best friend' and talk to her after a long time . we kinda talk as if we just knew each other this year . true , we knew our new-selves just in 2010 . therefore , we're a pair of new couple . i just miss those moments when we talk like we're BFF(s) and when we share our things with each other and even laugh together . i really miss those times , especially your laughter . i need you my dear friend ...

with pleasure , i hereby declare that i have thrown alot of glass products such as test-tubes , pipette , for example . i sensed the happiness yesterday when i threw this broken items away because when does this opportunity will come again ?

~~thursday is today~~ . today is a thursday . i'll say that i can talk about ... i'm not sure . malay project presentation went smoothly , last minute decision was to do 'syair' . i thought it was not bad , quite melodious . hahaha ... i was really amazed by myself as i was the first one to finish doing graph during maths lesson just now . impressed ! looking forward for better improvements in my studies , especially my weak parts .

i don't understand why i missed you today although i met you like times , uncountable . but when we don't sit with each other and talk and laugh , i still miss that although it only lacks for a day . see you tomorrow . and i would like to say .

HELLO , I MISS YOU ALREADY , I LOVE YOU , GOODBYE .

I don't wanna go back

To just being half of the equation

The only thing that would hurt me

Is if you weren't here

Without you I'm lost

You're the common denominator

he fills the breech with those bullets.

2010-04-05T18:30:00.002+08:00

hello people . today everyone seem to find the moday blues clausing around . long hours felt , especially during unwanted subjects . i've nothing to write now except for what had happened all day long .

morning was as usual . hectic teeling every single alive body (p.s. everybody duuhh !!!) that Taufik Batisah won 6 awards out of 7 nominations at #AnugeraHitz.Sg !!! congratulations to my beloved best friend a.k.a fiancee/hubby . i give that a ... hahaha !

class , class and class kept going on , like water hits every rock and collect sediments from the river , not every thing studied was smooth i mean . then it was 1 o'clock and i kept hoping over the hours that we would finally talk to each other without any sorts of diturbance . but it didn't happened at all , yet you gave me a weird look up and down . weird femme ... and so i say , " Get the monday blues out of YOUR RED DRESS , love . ;)) "

i will keep hoping for the best to happen these following days as long as God still lend me the breath .

Love ,
Shaizz

in the progress , all wasted.

2010-04-03T19:51:00.004+08:00

sometimes it seems that everything i do went down the rubbish bin . you ain't no care about me , and i kept running to you like a duckling . what should i do now ? gotta stop spending on you , and gonna live my life per normal , not staring and jumping all over amazed , " you came " .

drama maybe ? whatever , i ain't care a thing about today . frustrated , and wondered why money's so hard in hand . i'll be fine by tomorrow . dark sky on me , i guess . short update . goodbye .

the melody pulls/pushes my soul

2010-04-02T18:37:00.000+08:00

beautiful greetings to all . wow . i feel so happy today . thanks to the people around me , my family , my friends and my significant others . ♥

i have so much to tell . i will start from yesterday . five days in a week but this time , 4 days in a week excluding short hours tomorrow . TGIF , i thank God for all the wonderful things . i'm loving holidays . thursday was random and un-planned . i just go with the flow , what's gonna happen , i kept believing everything has its good and bad . when i say about friends , i just figured out this thing . i don't regret befriending my enemies last time when they're once were my friends cause it taught me and i learnt from it .

and one more important thing happened . i have a ~~chipped tooth~~ . not sure what's the cause , maybe i bite something hard not realizing my tooth chipped . have done a dental appointment this tuesday . hate it but it's for my own good . i'm worried about the cost , the chip is not that bad but kind of obvious . pray for my tooth to get better . hahaha , sounds hilarious .

and english test was magnificient , thank God . blessed cause i think i'm improving . thanks to my desire to write blog posts with complete english words . just have to wait for the results . hope i will pass with flying ~~rainbow~~ colors . ;)

i concluded something too . i felt that sometimes , " I shouldn't know and understand , but people should explain instead " . it can't be everytime that i have to hold the burden myself . so , tell me and explanation is in need .

today had been great so far . i woke up at 8 plus and straight to computer chair and up on Twitter . i felt the bond between Maarifians as we replied to each others's tweets . we care about each other , whether it's teacher to students or friends with friends . every of them play different roles as friends and have their own speciality . thanks for the joy brought to me by you girls this morning .

and i've been craving for weird foods lately . but not having everything at one time of course . diet's still on ...

a song have been making me cry and smile and think of you , and everything ...

Never Let You Go by Justin Bieber ♥

'Cause baby when you're with me

It's like an angel came by (oh)

And took me to heaven

(Like you took me to heaven, girl)

'Cause when I stare in your eyes

It couldn't be better

(I don't want you to go, oh no)

So let the music blast

We gon' do our dance

Bring the doubters on

They don't matter at all

Cause this life's too long

And this love's too strong

So baby, know for sure

That I'll never let you go

Take my hand (take my hand)

Let's just dance (let's just dance)

Watch my feet (watch my feet)

Follow me (follow me)

Don't be scared (don't be scared)

Girl, I'm here (girl, I'm here)

If you didn't (if you didn't know) know, this is love

Oh no, oh no, oh

I'll never let you go

i'm loving justin bieber because of this song , but not into him that much . this song is just too sweet .

bye-bye for now , school tomorrow . have a good weekend .

" A romantic heart is never shy to hold an unwrap gift going up and down the road just for his/her love . "

unreasonable and stupid

2010-03-31T19:51:00.001+08:00

and i call that "Absurd". my new favorite bombatic english word of the day . ;)

hello friends !!! guess what ? don't guess cause you know it ! it's the last day of March 2010 !!! and to this , i would like to thank March for being a busy and stressful month but i love you too because i learnt alot thorughout your period . so , thank you .

and hereby , i welcome April 2010 !!! welcome month of 'ibril' , hope you will be a good month to all of us . yes , a week of April is exam time but that will not ~~decrease~~ the mood to have fun in April ! yes , this Friday is 2nd April and it's a holiday ! celebrate good times , c'mmon !!!

i've been using exclamation marks , and that means i am happy and not thinking to much about my love life cause it's going-on smoothly . I'm never sober but I'm delighted cause I'm Addicted to you ...

yesterday i did another analysis and would like/love to share it with you all . it's about ...

FORMATION OF LOVE

Intimacy+Passion+Commitment

i basically came across a new theory of love which is the triangular theory of love done by a phychologist . so i decided to read it and find it interesting . so this is what was meant .

The three elements of love are :

1. Intimacy - feelings of closeness, connectedness, and bondedness

2. Passion - drives that lead to romance, physical attraction, and sexual consummation

3. Commitment - in the short term, the decision to remain with another, and in the long term, the shared achievements and plans made with that other

There are 7 forms of love and they are :

1. Liking/Friendship - presence of intimacy

2. Infatuated Love - presence of passion

3. Empty Love - presence of commitment

4. Romantic Love - presence of intimacy and passion

5. Companionate Love - presence of intimacy and commitment

6. Fatuous Love - presence of passion and commitment

7. Compassionate Love - presence of intimacy , passion and commitment

I'M DONE WITH MY SECOND ANALYSIS !!!

~~that's a wrap of subway's meal~~ . gosh , obvious lameness . so , i'm gonna update again tomorrow if i have the mood to , 70% yes to update ! goodbye for now .

Sweet dreams from The Love Doctor

say sorry & i'll forgive you

2010-03-28T17:39:00.006+08:00

i'm now starting to apply long title for my posts . it looks nice . hello . it's been a long day at home . ~~done nothing but homeworks .~~ just gonna inform you guys march was busy but managed to update as much as i could . half of april will be okay to update but half of it will not , exams coming like the a microphone head-banging the singer . hahaha . just gonna tell you people earlier .

i'm too fatigue giving free forgiveness in the past and not repeating it once or even twice again . you ask for it and i'll give it .

alright , enough of thinking about unnecessary human on this gravity-ground . have a great week ahead .

Love ,
Shaizz

you have kill me times .,

2010-03-27T18:35:00.003+08:00

i want to update , updating in anyways ... just got back from Yescom meeting two hours ago . It went on smoothly and great . and i would like to say congrats to Maarif for winning the C.P.S competition . Marha-marha !!! predictable . ;)

so , Yescom is basically about enterpreneurship . but actually it means more than that . we played this business-investing game during the meeting , it's part of the briefing . ~~disasterous ,~~ but manageable ~~. some temporary business fight .~~ but it was okay now .

i was supposed to go home later than i have , but plan cancelled just like that . and i'm verry-sad and disappointed at you for not telling me straight that you gotta go home . i don't like people messaging to cancel the hang-out . we're on the same floor , you could interrupt the meeting and just meet me , i don't like you making it that way , by sms . it's okay , i shouldn't think about it anyway . i thought today was more to the angry and a tiny-little-happy side ...

EARTH HOUR !!! it is due right @ 8.30pm when Hitz.Sg in on television ! i'm still gonna watch it no matter what , save the world , but watch the show too . taufik batisah performing . ;)

still have loads of homework to finish and tests that have to be revise . so , goodbye .

and to you , i saw your car just now . so cute , but freaked-out cause i was holding to bubble-tea . ~~hahaha . maarifians understand .~~

and to Ustazah Muzlitah , may you have a smooth time labouring a super-cute baby girl . we will visit you after the exams alright ! our doa is with you .

widely smile

2010-03-26T19:53:00.001+08:00

yes , exactly . felt so hyperactive and happy today . TGIF !!! thanks God it's friday . i really need to watch a good movie like " When In-Rome " but there is no free time scheduled on my calendar ! luckily last week was a holiday .

what makes me so happy today ? because i get to hang-out with my classmates like doing crazy things such as singing out loud ! and get to hang-out with my loved-ones ... but at one o'clock , a matter worries me . i heard stories . about you . felt sorry for what they've done to you . but i know you can manage , i know you can do it ! go-dear-go ! just take care of yourself alright . ♥

and then what makes me happy somemore , when i got to finish hadith test in 10 minutes time ! i just pray for the best for the results . i know i've studied , yes , ~~like confidently~~ . after school ends , i and a bunch of fun Sec 3 Maju peeps hang-out to do their bio notes in science lab with Teacher Sarah . i had a great time clowning around . hahahaha ...

on the way home , i was so touched when you replied my sms . thank you . i know you still treasure 'us' .

tomorrow ? i will have to go to school and reach before two o'clock in the afternoon for YESCOM meeting . excited but at the same time , ~~kind of lazy~~ . but i know it would be fun . and i would like to wish the best of luck for Nurul Iman and the other contestant for the competition going on tomorrow morning . may Mad.Al-Maarif win this title again and again and again ! Ameen .

alright . signing out . best of wishes . have a good weekend ahead . ;)
(p.s. i know he's superbly-cute!)

love and peace with no discrimination ,
~~SHAIZZ~~

returning ...

2010-03-22T16:37:00.002+08:00

i was so glad firstly cause today's the day we get back to school ! it was great/~~not~~ . overall it was fine , but it could have been more fun . something's lacking . i love the holidays , yeah , but i miss the people around all over school , my friends especially Sec 3 Maju , and the 'people' . ~~cheeky~~ .

i'm loving the song Angkasa by Hady Mirza . the rock melody was so beautiful and the lyrics really touched my heart . the song really refers to you ... how you've treated me , but i know maybe one day i'm gonna make the flower grow again , which resembles our friendship . i believe it . <3

i've been planning what to do during the june holidays . hahahaha , i know i should think of the bundle of exams but i just thought of it . not wrong after all , just asking around what they wanna do during the ~~quite~~ long holidays . bowling , movies , hang-out .

i've to do some research now . bye-bye for now . i'll update again when i'm free enough okay .

" Eyes is the window to each's soul "

Love ,

I-Z-Z-A-T-I

Bonding/Emotions

2010-03-20T17:13:00.006+08:00

so , yesterday night , i was professionally doing my own analysis on close relationships . this is true , not only my own fantasy or imagination . i tweeted every of my analysis via Twitter , and in total only 2 replied but they did that repeatedly asking for advice and definitions . thanks girls .

as i was saying , i have favorited all those tweets and will paste it right here for you people to read and maybe understand bit by bit of my analysis . i really take it seriouly you know . i find it verry interesting and fantabulous to at least find something fun to do that can benefit my life . beneficial and educational . yeah , it contains some romance but no , no censored talking stuffs . don't worry .

actually why i did this because i have my own reason . an important one . to know where my relationship with people around me is going right now . i have to know so i wouldn't lost the track or path of the right bonding that should be attached to these peoples . so without wasting time , i will start ;

Finding romance and relationships facts via Wikipedia . Don't translate it wrongly , not porn at all ok .

It's under close relationships .

1st opinion . I don't think it's a friendship .

2nd opinion . Girlfriend , yeah , same gender but nah , it's not it .

3rd opinion maybe right and true . Romantic friendship , it's better than the others .

I'm totally acting straight and quite scientific-love thingy brain here .

4th opinion . Same-sex relationship , it's right too . Same gender .

5th opinion . Significant Other or SO , it could be right three ... Has great importance on an individual's life .

6th opinion . Soulmate , could be but it involves sexuality . I'm not a lesbian .

Now , second analysis . Feelings and emotions . ;)

Affinity is characterized by high levels of intimacy and sharing .

4 styles of Attachment : secure, anxious-preoccupied, dismissive-avoidant, and fearful-avoidant.

Compersion is said to be a non-sexual state of empathetic happiness and joy experienced by romantic partners .

Intimacy generally refers to the feeling of being in a close personal association and belonging together.

Jealousy is an emotion and typically refers to the negative thoughts and feelings of insecurity, fear, and anxiety over a loss.

Limerence refers to an involuntary cognitive and emotional state of intense romantic desire for another person.

I experience limerence which is part of OCD .

Love still speaks the best .

Love is any of a number of emotions related to a sense of strong affection and attachment.

Ishq, or divine love, is the emphasis of Sufism. According to Islam .

Passion is an intense emotion compelling feeling, enthusiasm, or desire for something. Bleargh , nothing gotta do with relationship .

Interpersonal attraction is the attraction between people which leads to friendships and romantic relationships.

I'M DONE WITH MY ANALYSIS !!! ~~(p.s. first time capslock ! )~~
I WANT TO BE A LOVE DOCTOR !!!

~~Love and candies ,~~

~~QueenOfsoul vs. Dark Charmer~~

home,home,home

2010-03-20T08:41:00.000+08:00

i'm back in singapore right now since thursday morning at 2.30am . alhamdulillah , i'm doing fine here . i've been wanting to update since that thursday but just lazy to write technically . i've so many things to share but yet so , ~~to the same reason , laziness strikes !~~

so , let's start from the holidays . on saturday , it was random in kl . we just walked around places near our hotel . and the night market is a must go , like duhh ! and then it was a sunday ! joyous enough as i was given a budget of RM100 to spend on my own stuffs , and my aim was to buy at most 3-4 stuffs to squeezed over the budget . and i manage to buy 3 Diffferent Things !

1. A Lady-Like Watch from NOSE Rm39.00
2. A Leather Wrist Band from Teddy Tales RM9.90

3. North Star's Men Black Shoe RM70.00

satisfying enough ! so what's the total cost ? oh yeah , mummy top-up 20bucks to my budget . thanks ! and then we move on to monday . i went to the hotel's restaurant , le maison , to have breakfast . i ate everything healthy including salads , pancake and bacon&egg . not bad after all . i ate salad because i know the sec 3 maju geog excursion was to go to hydroponic aeroponic farm , so to be equal with them , i ate salads too ! but the proportion was different . i ate more than you girls . i bet ya .

on tuesday , i ate Subway's Steak&Cheese ! it was superbly delicious with the vegetables and cheese . i want more of it . when i'm going there again , i'm surely gonna go to subway . ~~not the train huh , it's subway-eat fresh !~~

so it was the day we went back home on wednesday . yeah , that's the day . but the train delayed for 3 and a half hours , from 2pm to 5.30pm . and here i would proudly declare that , malaysians serves the worst , read my lips , the worst .

whatever it is , i'm so glad i'm back home . i got to distress myself during the holidays . feel fine now .

so that's all about the holiday trip . rest here . and maybe the next post coming right up .

Fireflies stole my heart

2010-03-12T20:18:00.003+08:00

aren't the title cute ? hahaha ... yeah , now i realized fireflies sound better than vanilla twillight . but i love both anways ... so hello people . i'm going overseas tomorrow and won't be updating until i'm back home . please pray for my family and i to have a safe journey all the way there and back home too . your prayers is much appreciated . ;)

i will write nothing much but just dedications . just to wrap up the first term ! i'm just gonna distress . to the people whom i love , my friends and all . i will miss you guys . have fun for the excursion this upcoming monday . and here's my dedications :

To Teacher Sarah , thanks for comforting me and everything . Thanks for the hugs and kiss . I don't get to go to the excursion , but I put the trust on you to be the best professional photographer of the day . I miss you . Love you .

To Humaira , I will send your regards to your loved ones there . Update me on the english project ok . When you're guys like doing it . I miss you .

To Majdah , I will miss your hugs and jokes . I will also send your regards to your loved ones there . I miss you too .

To the others that I don't mention here , have fun on the excursion ! Take a lot photos okay !

And to PoMustafaSayang ( i don't know the spelling ! ) , I miss you too . Stay fragrant .

Love and peace ,

Izzati

in the bitterness

2010-03-10T20:10:00.001+08:00

for two weeks , wednesday has been an like emotiennelle day . last year , in 2009 , wednesday was the best day because of some reason . yes , it's still fun . but in my own perspective , like the middle day of a week , it's near to weekend , so things start to tremble all around and calm down for the weekends . normal i guess .

i didn't see you today . it's okay , i'm verry sure i'm gonna see you tomorrow . i miss you so much . ;)

today was random , i showed to nearly everyone taufik's new look and they were like , " wow , he looks cuter with that hair style " . and they had ~~tiny-laughs shortly after seeing the photo~~ . hahaha ... my best friend and local boyfriend .

ok , got to go . study on the way . i learn something today . it may sound old but it's like new to me .

" There's always failure behind every great and successful people . "

precisely ...

2010-03-08T19:08:00.004+08:00

good evening friends .

not much , just doing research on halloween right now . not exactly , blogging comes first , then research . oh yeah , i had this particular back pain that really-really hurts . my science teacher said that maybe i was stressed-out , that it causes some aching to the body . guess so . ~~just believe what scientists says so . it should be right , theorically . nuisance .~~

and today , my favorite quote was " absence makes heart grow fonder " . even if it's like hours that you didn't see that person , after a two day holiday , basically a weekend , then you thought the person never come . but you did .

you came , but what's with that look you gave me ? not important . still curious . if i'm brave enough , should be able to ask you tomorrow . yeah , taufik's girlfriend should be that tough to speak out , precisely ...

uno , two , three . bye-bye .

[ p.s. Today , 08/03/2010 , is the day of short-term memory . ;) ]

Antidote

2010-03-07T17:29:00.002+08:00

good news , or should i say , great news ! we talked this morning . the conversation starts at 11.16am . it was great , it went smoothly . and i was glad that we started talking after a long silence . so , i felt something good after that . like i feel that the bond is gaining its sweetness and strenght back . thank you so much .

and i was saying , " Curing the bond again . It's healing , Oh God , please bless this bond between us . "

it felt great . and today is sunday . so have to get back to study chemistry . wish me luck and pray for me i will pass this test with flying colors , and for the rest of the tests too . ;)

twice a time

2010-03-06T15:18:00.001+08:00

i've repeated it , can't do anything right now . it's just too late . guuhhh .

i'm losing the hold of our bonding . the thread is . burnt by fire that represents arrogance , self-importance , selfish , and many more ... i wanna save it but i can't . too much to do , i can't keep thinking of this . it just hurts too much . can i give it up ?

oh , emo huh ? sorry . just feeling that so better write it that i left this blog empty without updating . it's march ! new month , more stressful . the upcoming march holiday is a hectic one filled with revisions . yeah hate it . i still wanna watch Dear John in cinema . and yesterday's CCA was fun and we did bhangra dance ! i did it again without injuring myself ! woohoo , cheer for me ! and i don't understand . ~~sexy in what way ? ugly or funny or what ?!~~

so not much , but ~~homeworks and tests are around my calendar~~ . so have to go study right now . if you want more and better updates from me , look up on Facebook and Twitter . ;)

and before i forget , Taufik has cut his hair ! cute and still hot after all . ok , bye people .

(p.s. my love and care is changing , save it before i move it )

chilling-nostalgia

2010-02-28T08:41:00.001+08:00

good morning . to those who reading this at any other time , i posted this at 8 plus in the morning , so the greetings may have been different . actually , right after writing this , i have to finish my english essay homework . ~~i love the topic and articles given cause it's really interesting and teaches me too .~~

yesterday morning was full of joy , cause i attended the 1 hour and 30 minutes chemistry class , it starts from 9-10.30 am . it didn't disturb my saturday sleep at all ! in fact i was so 'joyeux' because it's been a long time since we last have a saturday class . only 20-plus sec 3 maju-ians came . we've planned to go mc-d right after the class , but i don't , cause i think i really need to budget on my expenses . ~~savvy-kid huh ???~~ hahahaha , at the same time , i'm on a diet right now . i think it has been a month , still progressing ... just pray that finally i will turn into a beautiful & healthy lady .... Ameen . ;)

went back home and slept for 2 hours , from 3:25pm to 5:00pm . too tired to do the overloaded homeworks . right after i woke-up , i receive several messages from 'you' that worries me . i shouldn't , but what if someone you care for worried about something , a matter/problem that you're in too ? worrying a-lot . conference-call .... then you were already in the state of pleasure and happiness , but me , i turned to a worry person ...

i emo-ed straight away on Twitter an bla-bla-bla ...

but today is a new day ! i guess the spirit's back ! so i think i should continue finish my homeworks so i could study for my upcoming test(s) ! wish me luck . bye readers ! and bye-bye too to february !

[ p.s. Yesterday , I sms you saying good night and sweet dreams , today I'm saying to myself , I don't wanna talk to you for the time being . Sorry . ;( ]

uprising-sky

2010-02-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

looking at the blue skies above attracts me into the deepest of my heart . thinking about my life , which mostly includes usual things and ... love .

having love in life is really the most precious things . cherishing each other is an important thing to keep the love flame alive , hoping it will stay like that truely forever . but what about its ups and downs ? known for quite a while now , the downs has been burning up our time , burning it and burning the happy times .

we had this fun together , i wouldn't want to let it go . when i cry , you comfort me . when you're sad , i always repeat what i always say , i will always be there for you no matter what , until the day when i rest forever , over the times i've spend building up all of this , our love , our lasting love .

whatever that may happen , please keep going on . cause i will . i seal those words , i will keep living the right when i still have this breath . when will i see this love again ? you own one , i own one .

our love will always be mine and yours . ♥

understood

2010-02-25T19:37:00.002+08:00

very unpleasant to hear the news . some people just don't understand the bond between us . you people trying to bring it down , nope i bet you can't . we're defending it together ourselves . we won't let you trouble her , and she will not let you do trouble with us . get it ? jealousy and envy is in your heart . evil spirit on you . alright , it should be understood .

Please don't cry and be sad . I will always be there for you , right by your side . ♥

superlative chair

2010-02-21T09:07:00.002+08:00

I want to watch DEAR JOHN ! it's out this 25th february . ~~it's a romance movie you know .~~ i also love the trailer . must love the movie ! Channing Tatum's in it ! OMG , i'm on the top of the world , the seventh sky .

so , this is the last update for the week . tomorrow will be another start fo the schooling week , and the last week in february . get ready to say hello to march ! alright , bye-bye .

( p.s. it's good if we could watch the movie together ... )

Changeling ?

2010-02-20T20:26:00.002+08:00

like i don't have anything to do , Twitter is the best company of all time . wonder when i'm gonna get bored of it ? hope not , but as long as i'm ~~not too addicted to it .~~

oh , hello readers . how you all doing ? it's been quite a long nor short 3 days of schooling . everything's fine . exciting things happen everyday . i love the sunshine , the bright light shining down the path of my life . ;)

so , yesterday was friday . and it was not bad after all . the CCA for yesterday was Dancerbobic . yes , i've injured once due to doing it for only once before and that was like on 1st.Aug.2009 . yup , i still keep it in mind . the one the instructor did yesterday was only the basic . easy , everyone seem to loving it . pretty sure they do , cause some decided to go for the class this morning . gotta ask them on monday how did it go .

and during the whole thing , i was ~~'being-teased'~~ , actually i'm not quite sure how to describe it , but like that too . few times , but it make my day . that's why i tweeted out , " Both sides make me happy today . " for some reasons , don't ask who are the two sides ok .

so , this next week will be a verry-hectic week . just hope i'm not gonna get sick due to the fatigueness . yeah , the update right up on the board . stay tune for another update from me . *wink*

( p.s. She can't seem to stop saying that I'm cute . But thanks anyway . No one has said that to me for quite a few times .)

mu-ta-ble

2010-02-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

able or likely to change . i declare that my heart's changing . yes , i still love you , but now i'm starting to love someone else .

today is the last day of the holidays . i will update during the weekends , it may be on saturday or sunday . ~~happy schooling~~ , happy weekdays everyone !

I'll do what you said and maybe it will work out . Thanks for the advice .

Much love .

in-Curable

2010-02-15T18:02:00.001+08:00

feels like i've been hit by the bus . weird . why the hell did i use the net from morning till evening ? addicted ? no , i'm not . left with tuesday , tomorrow will be the last day of the short-holidays ! not ready to go back huh ? totally . although i miss school , teachers and friends , but i am so ~~dim~~-tired . 4 days isn't enough to satisfy the need of resting ! the homework(s) and notes pilling up , but thank God , i'm done with it . but how lack of intelligence with lethargicness , i didn't bring my tauhid notebook back . so , unable to do the notes . on wednesday morning , ~~gonna persuade ustazah~~ , i mean say sorry of course .

lately , i'm so sticky to Twitter . i just love writing and updating what's going through my mind all day long , what i'm doing and whatever so . tweet , tweet , tweet . ok , ~~lame.~~

actually , for february , i will probably have the least posts on my blog , this particular one here . i tell you one thing , 2010 schooling year is hectic . ooh , trying to be bom.bas.tic .

ok , gonna take a shower now . no others after , i will list down the name of the person i misses so much . secret ! no need , you don't want to know .

peace . love u honey . :)

Over-Control

2010-02-14T17:32:00.007+08:00

hey honey bees . ♥

so much happened this week , mostly involves our act or play or whatever it's called , ~~My Fair Lad~~y . it brings nightmare at first cause it's like stressing me out . but thank god , it's done . and consolation prize is good enough , it is still called a prize . Well done Sec 3 Maju . :)

on Thursday , i got a terrible headache and was sweating , cold-sweat during geography . planned to concentrate , i did , but i started to feel uncomfortable , and teacher sarah asked me to sit at her place controlling her laptop . she asked me every single sleepy-heads during lesson to do that , just to refresh us up . but told her i was really-really sick . that day was the last day for rehearsal for the play . teacher asked me to go back , but i can't . basically , i will make it short , my body can't take it any longer , cause i reached school at 6:35am and went back at 7:00pm . but thanks teacher for caring about me and all of us .

so , Friday was the big day ! wasn't prepared at all , but managed at last . but i was pissed off a few times that day . ~~some people just tend to keep complaining short-term problems to everyone around . hate people like that . wish you didn't exist .~~

it's just February and our form teacher ,

Teacher Sarah has done so much . Lovely . ♥

And to you dear , it seems that , it's either " Let you go , or strenghten the bond between us ? "

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY .

modern story

2010-02-06T20:38:00.005+08:00

hey . what a long time since i update . now i will update you on what happened from monday till yesterday . ~~alright , here we go again .~~

Monday : i've got the blues on that day . basically , that day was science day . not much , but one thing . i kept praying and kept asking , Etes-vous malades ? Get well soon .

Tuesday : oh , i thought you were down . but i saw you ! yeay ! what did i do huh ? oh yeah ! cikgu war came back and i was so glad . oh , she's a cute and lovely teacher .

Wednesday : just you know , when it's the third day of the week , you will start thinking of the weekends , especially when you're ~~bored during this one typical lesson .~~ shoooshhhh ...

Thursday : We went back late and got so many homeworks to do ! it was the day where everyone complain about the stress ! and that day too , i had to write a review on the movie , Pride and Prejudice 2005 , but i haven't finished watching it , so i can't ! fortunate enough . teacher gave us another day .

Friday : oooh , yesterday wasn't stressful after all . i managed to finish all of the ~~happy working~~ ( hw ) ! i was excited yesterday cause it's the first CCA in 2010 ! how cool can that be ! so we had this flower-making activity . the flower that we made for from tissue paper , a nice one , but still , ~~it smells like its friend , the white tissue paper ,~~ although it's colourful . my flower was average , at least i get to do it !

and back during the briefings , you know what ? ~~what-what-what-what did she say ?~~ ooh , the teacher-in-charge of the CCA said , there will be aerobic ! wth ?! i was like gonna cry cause i don't want to do it ! it had cause the displacement of my knee back in 1-August-2009 . nooo ! i don't wanna get hurt anymore . please .

so when i went back home , it was raining heavily like flooding ! i was soo wet , ~~i was the wettest and the only person wet in the bus !~~ embarassing ... my school books are all wet , and still drying it right now . and i cried straight away when i saw the flower i made during CCA was drenched . sad and disappointed .

it's the first thing we both made in 2010 and now , it's gone ...

i cheered myself up by watching Suria Elektra ! Taufik's Sesuatu Janji performance was too hot to miss ! He was dancing magnificently i nearly fainted ! Great job honey !

today , nothing much . but figured out a topic . taufik owned so much shoes that i want to be like him . you can witness for youself , that was his shoe wardrobe , but i think it's more than that .

see the red shoes ? his favourite color and mine too . i love that shoe . he loves it too . ~~we love it , ok , draggy .~~ and the dark-brown boots . that's a classy-hot stuff ! i want that too ! the grey shoe was cool . can't describe things out anymore . grey is my favourite color too , so , yeah . and you see that black shoe with a white platform ? that's my long time favourite shoe ! i've seen the shoe once , sold at converse , but don't think it's bought from there . gonna find it out . if you know , let me know . c'mmon ! share the knowledge of shopping . :)

so instead of just telling about his shoes , what about me ? i sure know what i want . i want this pair of Crocodile brand shoes !

gorgeous right ? i know it's mens shoe . but i still love it no matter what .

i wish you would care to buy me a present with a sincerity in your heart . wish you remembered my birthday .

now it seems like , "We used to talk like there's no tomorrow. But now,silence stands between us."

pronounce your name

2010-01-31T19:49:00.002+08:00

and now , right now ! i feel the mood to update ! cause it's the last day of january 2010 ! woohooo ! ~~time just pass like thunder~~ . yeah , cool . so , many things have happened this past few days . exciting .

yesterday , we went to jb . ok , not bad , but i really don't like to go to malaysia . that's the fact . but bought some stuffs . reached home at about 1 plus am in the morning of 30th january , which is today . yeah , and this morning woke up at 8 plus o'clock and went straight to kallang to meet . . . KHOS ! yes , it means lettuce in arabic . and we do our hadith project about ' shame is part of the iman ' . it was really hillarious .
* But I wanna say sorry to Hidayah and the other team members that was present just now . So sorry , I think I was the one who accidentally deleted the interesting scene . Sorry alot . Love You Guys .

i really don't feel like going to school tomorrow , but i will . yes . so tired right now . and gotta pack my school bag for tomorrow . i'll update again soon . love .

2010-01-27T16:54:00.000+08:00

i know i am a day late , but still i will write this .

Wishing Ellen Degeneres a verry Happy Birthday ! I wish I could meet you up-close and personal . You're my favourite American personality . Love Ya ! :)

wonderearthic

2010-01-25T18:29:00.004+08:00

in case you miss me , i update just for you ok . ~~*wink-wink*~~ hahaha ! ok , lame . me , my mood now ? let me see . i would say tired +exhausted+hyper . it's considered 50/50 . ~~crap speech~~ .

i had a really bad stomach cramp during maths period . i slept for about 15 mins like that . it's kinda ok after that . i suddenly woke up when dayah said something and i actually thought she was joking . but the truth is , i'm speechless , only they know . hahaha . you all so funny . :)

so , i'll update again when i'm really free to type it out long ok . signing out now . homeworks on the goo .

sweet dreams

2010-01-23T13:10:00.000+08:00

hello . good afternoon . ~~just bath minutes ago~~ , and popped on the pc to update this . yes , my blog played a new song by owl city , vanilla twillight . the song is so cute , but owl city song materials copy each other of them . i mean vanilla twillight sound so similar to fireflies . nevermine , maybe they're just showing originality .

currently , randomly , tuning in to 98.7fm . perfect radio station when you're playing the pc at home alone . you feel very accompanied . ooh , when i say something like this , it means i'm totally bored . ok , for the weekends , i have 4 or approximately 6 homeworks to do in total . let me read it out loud :

Arabic Worksheet ( translation )
Hafal Faraid
Revise Nahu Notes
Maths WB - Indices No. 7, 8 , 9 in Maths Practise
Maths TB - Standard Form No. 5 , 6 , 7 , 8 , 9 in Fullscape Paper
Hafal Quran Surah Fussilat Ayat 1-15

as written in my mini-small ~~marvel heroes notebook .~~ total 5 , 2 down and 3 to go . insyallah , i am gonna finish all , but the hafalans will be tomorrow . wish me luck with my loads of homeworks .

i feel really cold now . a good weather after all . i've got to finish my homeworks now . update again when i'm free ok . bye-bye .

(P.S. I love you )

competing inside

2010-01-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

today we talked . just a short chat . come on babe , talk . just waiting friday to come so that maybe i could do what i want too . bye-bye .

hole in my heart

2010-01-18T18:04:00.005+08:00

keeping it inside hurts me alot , desirable , wanting to express how much i miss you and love you all this while . it's been months since we talked . oooh , don't you feel the pain ? maybe you know notice that i didn't start the conversation like i do last time , but i expect to say hello first , it's never wrong .

or maybe you just think , oh , she's ignoring me , i don't even care or bother , she's nothing to me anymore . how sad dear , how could you think like that ?

it's really good if i have and own the superpower that enable me to read and know what you're thinking or feeling about me . . .

are you facing the world of truth ? care about others . don't keep revolving around yourself all seconds , think .

you want what i express about ? there it goes . don't ask who i'm referring to , cause none of you know that particular person . soo , today is monday . school's as usual . but what i like was physics and chemistry lesson . what ?! yeah , what i like it cause it's really interesting to learn .

and when we went back , it was like raining cats and dogs . no , drizzling . but stopped . thank you Allah for wetting up our state and letting back Mr Sun out to let us have a safe journey home . not much , currently i'm feeling sleepy and emotional . that song keeps repeating in my head . good , making me feel sleepy . anyway , i fell down yesterday . haha , once again iinjured my left knee again . ~~well done , great job~~ . nehh , i'm not a cry-baby to go , oohh , it hurts . no . typically not me .

to end this , i will say :

i miss your sweet smell of perfume .

i miss your beautiful smile on your face .

i miss your hand , holding it keeps me warm .

most importantly , i miss you .

i'm at wrong

2010-01-16T20:22:00.003+08:00

~~AWRY .~~ feeling like that . and when the song Time For Miracles blissed through my ears , it makes me think more . just look at the lyrics , so meaningful , i love it so much , especially when it was sang by adam lambert , my gay guy . ooh , that seems wrong . no , i don't think so . go on , say anything you like . eewww , adam's a gay . ellen's a lesbian . so what? i don't care . get that ? to those who said those things to me , take that , ~~you know who you are .~~

i'll really elaborate the lyrics , from the start till the end .

It's late at night and I can't sleep - i kept thinking of you , how much longer can we be like this ?

Missing you just runs too deep - missing you always , it makes my heart grow fonder

Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile - too much resistance and desire

Every kiss I can't forget - ooh , this doesn't have to do with us

This aching heart ain't broken yet - how much we have fight and argue , i still stay strong

Oh God I wish I could make you see - i wish you could have the power to see and hear

Cause I know this flame isn't dying - i don't want this to end just like that

So nothing can stop me from trying - no , i won't stop

Baby you know that - i really hope you know it

Maybe it's time for miracles - i kept hoping day and night

Cause I ain't giving up on love - it isn't worth to just let it be

You know that Maybe it's time for miracles - please God , i plead

Cause I ain't giving up on love - we build it together , no it's not gonna fall

No I ain't giving up on us - we can be together

I just want to be with you - i want you to accompany me before it's too late

Cuz living is so hard to do - yes , so hard without you , i am suffering

When all I know is trapped inside your eyes - please let it out , i don't care whether it's good or bad , just let me know , please
You know it's time - it's the last chance , baby . . .

i love you . ana mushtaq a'laik .

unacceptable perception

2010-01-14T18:08:00.000+08:00

~~bonsoir !~~ it's a greeting in french that is written in french . yes , french . i would really love to take french language classes , but i have an inner thought that it is better for me to improve my english and arabic first , as it is more important in my life . huh , life . you read me .

now , it's 5:51 pm , ellen show is still on-air . watching + playing , ahah , writing this . . . . . . . . . oh , it just finished . anyway ( ellen's way of talking ) , school was ok today . as usual , what was fun was my friends was around , but that doesn't make my day . so far , none of the school days was completely great . i hope it will get better and better ahead . ameen .

oh yeah , ~~i just realized that i am short~~ .

distraction . desruption . interruption . these things are annoying but sometimes can be really good when you just want that something not to happen and this three matters help it out . understand it .

and about the title of this post ? well , apparently , people can't accept the perception or the presence of homosexuality . this is a serious matter . yes , it is relatively haram , but what the heck with those ~~ang mohs~~ ? there's a quite high percentage that these people hates homos , especially when they're popular like ellen and adam . gosh , i love them to the max . so what?! they kept asking why you like these kind of people ? i love them becuase they've great personalities in and out of them . i explained it now . so stop asking it . merci .

my eyes seals the secret between us

i smell the fragrance everytime i'm with you

my lips kiss the key to our secrets

just to keep it unrevealed

from time to time

but one day you made a call

and said it's no longer possible

between the two of us

and i dreamt about you

just that night

cause i knew there's always a second chance

please honey , i cry

i cry for you , i whip it

i whip it and cry again

please make me happy

all of the time after this

that's my last hope and pray to God to save our relationships

i care for you

i miss you

and i'm in love with you

changed.couples

2010-01-12T18:13:00.001+08:00

change-ed! let me see what it actually means from the dictionary : someone who has become very different from what they were before, as a result of a very important experience . yes , important indeed .

why i paste that picture is because i think that the picture depicts a scene of a woman wearing a red flats stepping into the puddle of rainwater . but she seems unsure . i think she's afraid of reality . that's just my opinion , ~~filles~~ . reality is an important matter of life that people sometimes are scared or afraid about . not knowing what would or could happen in their days ahead of them . whether it's good or bad , high or low , dark or bright , but the thing that matters most is that we live in reality . it's not wrong to have an imaginary world of yourself , but don't too much beliefs in the un-existed world . ~~it's not even extinct in anyways .~~

soo , stop the essay and story-out the reality babe . today , as usual school . during a*maths , we were not allowed to go out of the class , for those who were not eligible for the class . but bulls**t . have to stay . at 9 am , we got malay lesson and we played the game where someone starts a story and everyone continues it with a word , every each from all of us . hahaha , kinda fun . then bla-bla-bla , all the way , until prayer times .

about this , i feel awkward .

don't ask . but had a great day somehow . and gotta decide whether to take C.C.A which is sports or to join the library club . let me give you the advantages of both :

C.C.A Sports because this year have Inter-Madrasah , so thought of joining the badminton team or captain ball . And there is some other reasons why I'm eager to join this thing .
Librarian ? You hate reading . Yes , but i like about it is I get the opportunity to decorate and write my own reading contents which is desperately needed by the club . Journalism ! Aimer writing .

explained it all and is it enough ? sure-sure yes . ahh , ~~fatigué~~ , that means tired . and last but not least , I Speak French .

another sunday

2010-01-10T14:31:00.000+08:00

i am sick . terribly sick . down with sore-throat , cold , flu wich is the same , cough , stomach-ache , and fever . and i am really tired .

so , school started and it was great . new subjects , topics and new teachers too . great and ~~wealthy~~ experience . and i am really excited at the same time for the brand new season of American Idol ! why i am so excited for it because :

Ellen's judging !
Can't wait to see the rivalry between Simon and Ellen !
Watching new talents on stage !
Ellen's the 4th judge !

yes ! i am excited mostly because ellen's on it . my favourite american personality is her . no one else , only her . i love her clothes , humour and everything about her ! amazed . ~~i love her so much and i wish i could meet her one day .~~

back to the sickness matter . i got to go now cause going to studio after this to take photos with my family . so have a great weekdays ahead . update again when i am well enough . pray i will get better , thanks . love much .

i had an affair

2010-01-03T16:50:00.002+08:00

salut les gens . it means greetings folks .

yesterday i post a post ?! ok , lame talking . yeah , and i mentioned that i was going to the airport . and yes i did ! we had a dinner at Seoul Garden Hot Pot , that's located at T2 . so we parked the car at T3 and travel through the skytrain to T2 . seould garden used to sell barbecued and hot soups last time . but this time they're serving us korean food ! you think i'm excited ? hear the story first ok . we ordered Kimchi Seafood Soup instead of the ~~ginseng soup~~ . it taste so weird ! both of them , we ordered two as there were two tables . sorry , but it doesn't taste good . then we ordered our individual meals and i had seafood -something-noodle , this something ___-hoon or what . and it taste weird or different maybe . but what i like was the smoke duck and grilled beef , and also the Rice Cake Mochi . very soft and chewy and not too sweet . :)

then it's around 745pm and we head down to Swensens to eat desert . i shared my meal with my cuzzie . we had Walnut Rocky Road and it stole my heart away ! i ~~fell in love~~ with the hot-sizzling skillet and the sticky chewy chocolate ice-cream and the butterscotch creamsauce too ! yummy ! i looiiiike .

so we spent a-lot and had a chance to choose a gift whih varies from santa clause , raindeers and many more which was covered with its casing . i chose and get Santa Clause . it's so cute you know ! very soft and ~~smoochie here and there~~ ! see , very adorable right ?

hmmm , today is sunday , tomorrow is monday . what ?! school's starts tomorrow ?! yes ! tomorrow ! the next day of today ! i am looking forward to this but at the same time i am verry-nervous . ~~crappp .~~

i haven't packed my bags and i will now . so when school starts it means only 1 hour of computer and only allowed to use it 2-3 days per week , i bargain . so , i hope you guys will wait . good luck with everything good ya'all do alright . bye-bye . peace .

viva night

2010-01-02T16:57:00.001+08:00

hey ya all . i'm not typing from my house pc like i usually do . using my sister's laptop to login .

so , yesterday had a fun and exciting night . i went to plaza singapura to catch the brand new movie , Avatar , at the GV there . got the premier at 10pm , that's the latest time i've ever watched a movie . at it ended at around 1245am the next day , hahaha . i know , that sunds like a 24-hour day . i thought all over the days that this blue-alien movie is really not gonna be logic . i cried halfway when this scene where the father died . and some of the emotional parts where some of the People died . i really freaking hate the humans , felt like killing them at the top violently , as ever . omg ! but i was so happy i clapped when the bad guy which planned on ruining the forest of Pandora . but i really give 5* for the movie . entertaining , full-of-action , and humorous too . love it !

now it's 450pm right , i went to my uncle's house just now at 11 am till around 400pm to join the ceremony of " Cukur Rambut " for my new-borned niece , Ifa Syafiqah , sorry because i don't have the time to take her photo , but i assure you that she is so cute in the little dress for babies !

so after this i am going to airport to have dinner . i would really want to have a good time later because i's gonna be my last shopping time before school reopens in 1 and a 1/2 days , specificaly , hahaha . ~~random me .~~

well , bye for now , continue this post maybe tomorrow . have a good day !

come back a-new

2010-01-01T12:23:00.001+08:00

i'm dying to take photos outside . but i really have to settle the school things first thing first . oh , anyway Happy New Year ! It's 2010 , may this year we will be blessed with more achievements and success .

actually i found this at someone's blog while i was blog-hopping yesterday . it's really a ~~great situational writing~~ . maybe it's worth reading just to keep in mind for the new year ,cause you won't want to make the same mistakes over and over again , so this thing make me realised . check it out :

You can hate a person just by looking at her/him: the hair, the smile, the look, the clothes. Anything can trigger negative feelings. You just have to go with that flow and any proof that person is not horrible will have no influence on you.I don’t know if we could say a good thing about every person we’ve met so far, maybe they haven’t impressed us in a positive way, but we can most certainly bitch about all of them. There must have been something to annoy us at one point. It’s only human! For every nice gesture and person who smiled thanks to you, there is an unhappy person, someone who feels neglected or discriminated against.

It’s human to be annoyed, but above that, I think it’s human to be hatable (being available for hate).

We are hatable with every gesture, every choice we make and tear we drop. Because all these are movements on a map filled with people and, inevitably, when we go one way we get closer to some and estrange from others. We are, in essence, controversial.

Some are more controversial than others, true. It depends on how far we move from the center of the map or, in other words, how extremist we are. And how much we show of our personality we show to others. But still, we are always lovable to some and hatable to others.

That’s the breakthrough. We’re both good and evil, pleasant and repulsive, smart and stupid. It only depends on where we’re standing when we’re judging. There is no black and white. And that’s why the big picture is important: we need to see the balance between the smiles and the tears someone provokes. And the reasons. The intentions. The more information we have, the better we see the tone of gray.

Anyway, we are hatable. That’s our most human trait. Every person stands for the things another one hates. That’s life.

so yeah , that actually inspired me a lot , telling tales about life and human's life , how it goes . aha , hatable , now you know the meaning .

I really , really hope that this new year 2010 will make me a better person with my own hardwork and the help and support behind me . and i can't wait to come back to school . and just this morning i had a dream . no , not a story to tell , it's for me to keep and for you to not asked . hahahaha , ok , lame .

oh , and i got a new haircut just yesterday ! i kinda love it but i will aimer it more if it gets longer a bit just above the shoulders . yes , i cut it like alex evans . ok , got to go now . bye-bye .

i pulled his hair and put it on my head

2009-12-30T19:33:00.002+08:00

hello . i've got nothing to update about . nothing interesting happened recently . oh , just remembered , thought of cutting my cellphone line , just to cut cost . although my bills every month was around $15-$18 per month , it's still alot . i wanted to sacrifice to not owned any more cellphone till i worked one day i hope so with a worth-it pay . but i was also thinking the advantages of having a cellphone . here's why :

I need to use it to call my family when I'm out , just to inform them whether I've reached the place or what time I'll be back or where am I on Earth ? Yeah , those questions. It's important cause who knows I might get lose .
Ooh , I need my cellphone for the SMS System . I can sms my friends , family and whoever . Messaging can be important at times . Whether emergency about school , or what , who gonna pick me up from school . Ahaa , and for updates of homework .
I need my celphone again so that I can keep-in-touch with my significant other . Yes Honey , I'll help you !

so , that's apparently why i need my cellphone . and why i don't need it ? i'll explain .

I don't need it because I have been using this phone for around 3-4 years , and practically it's a way long period . I need a new phone , that's what I am trying to say .

it's explain all . so i need it more than i don't need it . but i shall think about it . tired of talking about technology , ~~i wish i was in the 80s~~ , no , i don't .

last saturday , i went to fort canning . and when i was there , i just got to know that At-Sunrice Global Chef Academy is located there , right there ! i was so enthusiastic i slipped on the floor ! naaahhh , i bluffed you . Global Chef Acad. , that's their website , you can go check it out if you want to . ooh , i've looked at the page , but not convincing . two more years to go , i've to decide before and of my secondary level . i really want to be a chef , or photographer . i want to be a chef because i have passion for cooking . i want to be a photographer because i want to explore the world through photography . inspiring ? hahaha , joking . it's what i dream for , as long as i can help to stabilise my family's financial status , the most important thing .

ok , what i've got to say for today is done . bye-bye .
( P.S. You've inspired me alot , keep doing that . )

smootha-licious

2009-12-28T18:41:00.005+08:00

Congratulations to Sezairi for being crowned the third Singapore Idol ! I know you would make it .

And to Sylvia , wishing her good luck for her future career and you know you're already a winner .

Not forgetting , I love your song Hady , I'll Never Leave , good lyrics and nice melody .

And to Taufik , I'm looking forward to your upcoming english and malay album , and love your " Addicted " performance last night .

~~XOXO .~~

christmas flown away

2009-12-27T16:10:00.009+08:00

firstly , hello ! it's been 2 days since i last on the pc . yeah , finally !

secondly , i love that song , and make sure you listen to it and remember to turn on to the max volume ! for your entertainment by adam lambert , my gay boyfriend ! that song was performed at AMA and it had a controversy . oh , because adam acted a few unexpected scene . i shouldn't talk about it , but you go find it . i thought this kind of feedback would only come from the religious type of people , not the americans , but they do , concerning on how bad he presented the song with those acts . but to me , it was fine . he expressed the acts to the way how the song goes . ok , whatever , because i still love him .

thirdly , i am dead of buying things online ! especially from ellenshop.com . i love them all ! but i picked a few things sold on the web . yes ! that's the photo of the things i want ! these are the descriptions of the things :

" laugh.dance.hydrate " water bottle
the ellen degeneres mug
gray hoodie with pink lettering
the ellen degeneres cold cup
i-Phone cases
the ellen degeneres big logo v-neck tee
" laugh.dance.stretch " gray yoga mat

yes , i know i don't need the i-Phone case cause i don't own an i-Phone , but i am planning to buy it in February 2010 . not sure about it , but i still love it more than anything . the water bottle , i need it , not i want it . i want a new black-coloured bottle , but haven't bought one . the mug , wow , ellen drinks her water from the mug in every of her show ! i can't resist it ! the yoga mat ? planning to go for a trial of yoga class . but the mat has its feminine look in it ! ok , where now ? oh , the cold cup , it was given away during the august show , and it was too late now ! it's ok . and last with the hoodie sweater and v-neck tee , i can wear it . like duuhhh ! ~~je aimer~~ them all ! crazy for ellen degeneres stuffs ! gorgeous !

ok , move on ! last 2 days was tiring . i went to 3 weddings yesterday . i had to rewang at the first one . my cousin's wedding . what i liked most about the ceremony was the kuda kepang and the malay dance . superb !

ok , what more ? ahhh , i am tired . yes , looking forward for Singapore Idol Grand Finale tonite ! Airie or Sylvia ? ~~unsure !~~ i love both of them ! be prepared for the result cause both of them are verry good at performing .

oh , people kept asking , are you looking forward to school in 2010 ? many said no because the holidays are running out so fast , like sales ! ok , lame . but i said no . but instead i really am looking forward to school . ~~i miss the people there . :)~~